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I've been feeling more and more lonely everyday and I don't know if I completely hate it.
I think I enjoy being by myself more than any of my friends. But I can't stand doing that everyday. School is getting worse and worse. Everything makes me feel either sad or angry. And I've been keeping the same things bottled up for far too long.
I'm stuck. I don't want to be stuck anymore. I've been in this same place for almost half a year and I'm sick of pretending to enjoy it. I'm sick of having no one to pick me up when I'm feeling down and I'm scared that when I do, they'll get sick of me. It seems to happen a lot. Like every time.
I don't know if I'm more sick of people or myself. I'm sick of this place. I'm sick of the confusion.
I hope everyone has an amazing, loving Valentine's Day.
I think I enjoy being by myself more than any of my friends. But I can't stand doing that everyday. School is getting worse and worse. Everything makes me feel either sad or angry. And I've been keeping the same things bottled up for far too long.
I'm stuck. I don't want to be stuck anymore. I've been in this same place for almost half a year and I'm sick of pretending to enjoy it. I'm sick of having no one to pick me up when I'm feeling down and I'm scared that when I do, they'll get sick of me. It seems to happen a lot. Like every time.
I don't know if I'm more sick of people or myself. I'm sick of this place. I'm sick of the confusion.
I hope everyone has an amazing, loving Valentine's Day.