Open your mouth and say AHHHHHH!!!!
So, they semester is just about over, and because of that, I am SUPER excited. So all the time I am not putting forth to stupid classes or work this break, I will be putting forth in my Wiccan lessons. I have been a student of Sacred Mists for several months and I have done exactly one assignment. Ugh. Hopefully I will be able to attend the yule ceremony - at least :(
In other news, Potterness is awesome (Potterness is my own special word for the Youngstown School of Witchcraft and Wizardry ... which I vote we just simply call it the Hogwarts Alliance from now on.) - and there will be a winter event held at my townhouse on Dec 28 - a week after Yule. Which works. yay!
Ok, in other news, I had the first real dream I have had about ... we'll call him "that guy" in this post, because I don't feel like acknowledging his name.
So anyway, in about a year - the last one was like the second or third week of January of 2007. This one happened about a week ago now, maybe not quite. Anyway ... dream sequence.
Rudi, Kelsey and I are at a bar by the lake - almost the teen pav ... but a bar. I get a note asking me to go outside ... I tell the girls I will be back momentarily. I go outside and I see "that guy" standing with several of last year's third floor bunch. He walks over and hands me a small envelope, gives me a slow, meaningful look in answer to my own questioning gaze, and walks back to his group. I walk toward the lake and hop up on a picnic table and look inside the envelope. The girls come and sit next to me wondering what the hell is going on when I notice a letter, a misfits cd, and a small box. I open the letter.
Dear Brandi -
Remember how I told you that you would be angry with me for things that I would do, but that to understand that I still loved you, and hoped that you would hang on to that love you had for me? (This was from dream one - he told me that he would do things that would piss me off, but that he wasn't ready to love me yet, though he did.) Well, I still love you - very much. I didn't know how to say this to you and I know how fond you are of writing, so I thought I would try it this way,
You didn't think about Rhyane or your dream of us when you were thirteen, but I do. You thought you held your emotions in so well - but I still knew. I;m sorry for hurting you, and I understand what you did last year in pushing me away. It's not your fault - you did what you thought was best. I certainly didn't help anything when I let myself back away.
I've done dumb things and will still probably do dumb things. I'm not perfect, but I love you.
Open the box ............................ Will you marry me?
--"that guy"
i opened the box and inside was a gorgeous blue sapphire surrounded by teeny diamonds in white gold. I left the envelope, note, and cd with Rudi and Kelsey, and walked forward a bit, until he broke away from the encouraging male friends.
"We need to talk:" - him
"Yes." and we start walking down the beach,
After awhile he says "You aren't wearing the ring."
"no," I say.
"Does that mean that answer's 'no'?"
"No."
"Then what ---?"
"It means I think you should put the ring on my finger, " I say, looking up at him, grinning.
He grins, and does as I instruct, gives me a huge hug - a hug that I feel like I have been coming home to for a very long time - and kissed me, tells me he loves me. I tell him I love him too ............. before I start yelling at him. Why hasnt he talked to me in so long? What was his deal in ignoring me? We might be engaged now, but we are SO doing the dating thing before we set a date for the wedding..
He smiles, " I deserved that."
"Damn right," I breathe, calming down.
"I love you."
"Good," I say. "I love you too."
And then I woke up.
Someone give me a goddamn interpretation of this that I can STOMACH!!!!!!
In other news, Potterness is awesome (Potterness is my own special word for the Youngstown School of Witchcraft and Wizardry ... which I vote we just simply call it the Hogwarts Alliance from now on.) - and there will be a winter event held at my townhouse on Dec 28 - a week after Yule. Which works. yay!
Ok, in other news, I had the first real dream I have had about ... we'll call him "that guy" in this post, because I don't feel like acknowledging his name.
So anyway, in about a year - the last one was like the second or third week of January of 2007. This one happened about a week ago now, maybe not quite. Anyway ... dream sequence.
Rudi, Kelsey and I are at a bar by the lake - almost the teen pav ... but a bar. I get a note asking me to go outside ... I tell the girls I will be back momentarily. I go outside and I see "that guy" standing with several of last year's third floor bunch. He walks over and hands me a small envelope, gives me a slow, meaningful look in answer to my own questioning gaze, and walks back to his group. I walk toward the lake and hop up on a picnic table and look inside the envelope. The girls come and sit next to me wondering what the hell is going on when I notice a letter, a misfits cd, and a small box. I open the letter.
Dear Brandi -
Remember how I told you that you would be angry with me for things that I would do, but that to understand that I still loved you, and hoped that you would hang on to that love you had for me? (This was from dream one - he told me that he would do things that would piss me off, but that he wasn't ready to love me yet, though he did.) Well, I still love you - very much. I didn't know how to say this to you and I know how fond you are of writing, so I thought I would try it this way,
You didn't think about Rhyane or your dream of us when you were thirteen, but I do. You thought you held your emotions in so well - but I still knew. I;m sorry for hurting you, and I understand what you did last year in pushing me away. It's not your fault - you did what you thought was best. I certainly didn't help anything when I let myself back away.
I've done dumb things and will still probably do dumb things. I'm not perfect, but I love you.
Open the box ............................ Will you marry me?
--"that guy"
i opened the box and inside was a gorgeous blue sapphire surrounded by teeny diamonds in white gold. I left the envelope, note, and cd with Rudi and Kelsey, and walked forward a bit, until he broke away from the encouraging male friends.
"We need to talk:" - him
"Yes." and we start walking down the beach,
After awhile he says "You aren't wearing the ring."
"no," I say.
"Does that mean that answer's 'no'?"
"No."
"Then what ---?"
"It means I think you should put the ring on my finger, " I say, looking up at him, grinning.
He grins, and does as I instruct, gives me a huge hug - a hug that I feel like I have been coming home to for a very long time - and kissed me, tells me he loves me. I tell him I love him too ............. before I start yelling at him. Why hasnt he talked to me in so long? What was his deal in ignoring me? We might be engaged now, but we are SO doing the dating thing before we set a date for the wedding..
He smiles, " I deserved that."
"Damn right," I breathe, calming down.
"I love you."
"Good," I say. "I love you too."
And then I woke up.
Someone give me a goddamn interpretation of this that I can STOMACH!!!!!!