Dec 19, 2005 18:36
Well I was thinking to myself, and I wanted to jot this all down, just bare with me, I want to remember so one day I can read it to see again. Feel free to add anything, if you like. Here goes:
My name is Michael Charles Macaluso. I am sixteen years old, seventeen in July, and I live in Naperville and hate it here. I've never done drugs or alcohol, and I just do not plan on ever doing both, however naive that sounds. I try really hard to be a good person. My favorite color is blue because it is easy to match. I do not try as hard as I should in school. I get up in the morning to see my friends. I know many people, but I only have a few real good friends. Sometimes I feel that things are not going to get better. I like the way the sun feels on my face. Normally I am too modest, but I do not mind. I am Christian. I like all kinds of music, but one of my favorites is instrumental/classical. I go to school and see so many people that I have no want to know. I do not want to have sex before I am married, again may sound naive. I think people should date for more than kissing, fondling, and what have you. When I speak, the words do not always come out right. I like to write. I want to go to different countries. I want to run outside when it rains. I know when I see a good movie, because it makes me feel good. I play a lot of video games, but since I started high school I really have not been playing like I used to. I am really interested in swords. I hate school. I love learning even though. I remember in sixth grade I barely spoke. Long walks outside are very relaxing. I want to date a girl who is not like all the other tall blond less than womanly girls at my school and in this town. I hate work. I want to live in the middle of a forest. I feel someone has to fix this country, it is broken. If people would think about it, hatred would disappear, but that is never going to happen. I do not like Christmas, it has lost it's meaning to me. I am a pretty strong guy, but I am not strong enough, and I do not use my strength. I never used to like reading but now I love it. My favorite restaurant is Chipotle. I really love spicy food. I do not like people who are fake. I do not like people who do not think before they speak. I have done some things in my life that I am not really proud of, but I have also done things that I am. I say things that I never would go through with. I make promises that I can keep, and I keep them. I am not a revengeful person. I do turn the other cheek. I am learning that there is more to life than school. I wish more people would listen to me, I think I have some good ideas. I believe that when things go wrong, you should fix it so it does not happen again. I do not try hard enough sometimes. I let things happen, with me or without. I like singing and dancing, even if I am not good. All in all, I think I am a pretty simple guy. I do not know why I wear my cross, part of it is religious and the other part is patriotic, but there is still more, and I do not know the words for it. I am going keep in touch with my friends after high school. I try to make myself better, but I can not always do that by myself. I like it when people tell me how to be a better person when I am being nothing but a jerk. Every once in a while I can come up with something funny, and I like making people laugh. Seeing war movies about WWII make me proud of my country, but sad because no one cares anymore. I get teary when I watch them too. I want to live somewhere placid. I am writing a book that I will probably never finish. I do not fear death, and I do not fear living. I do not know what I fear. No, I fear that I'll never get the most out of life, and I do not know if I am doing it right now.