Apr 12, 2005 11:19
You know most people come into life with the chance to make the best out of it with hard work and persistance. Although there are always unfortunate events that happen to people, some people seem to have that figurative dark cloud that looms over their head.
I propose that I am one of those people.
No matter what I do, I know that if i see success then I am bound to fail at it. So when else do you have the worst luck then doing something that really matters to you. With all the studying in the world, I would still never do good, because there is always something that will prevent it.
So I have my last studio time, that in which i missed 2 because 1)my car broke down and I couldn't get there, and the other time I was in Peterbourgh. Not to mention that I HAVE to record my band, because if I didn't I would never hear the end of it.
It really hurts to hear that the mix you did sucks, and you look like you don't know what your doing in the studio. Well here's a big clue, its because even when I am there, which isn't very often, I don't get to do anything. I fucking hate those fuckers in my class that look down upon me. I fucking hate politics that that bullshit is fucking going to die if it EVER happens to me again. I think I am at my limit.
that isn't even the kicker, so I can't sleep very well because of some chronic pain (which in a way is caused by my nerotic mind), and I can't even sleep right because I can't move without it hurting.
ALL I want is life to give me a break for a change, Let be enjoy my happiness when i have it, because at this moment I am very far from happy.