highways for michael dewar

[silver_grin]

highways

for michael dewar

1
michael dewar, can you
find my heart? it left me
in madness
for a great wind and i
do fear it has jumped
a train to yer trash city
from my
trash city.

2
i've been told it's a long way
to the end and that
just like a man
every car must die so
i guess i'll go out
someday smoking
on the highway and
just like a man
every beast longs for home
and to roll in distinct smells
familiar and tired.

oh, but like a man
i sigh on the neck
of the girl that captivates
my interests today
and i fear change
in my heart will
push so hard i'll
not be sure what
i can refuse or if
a cheap hotel will
see my soul
or my skin
someday and
just like a man i will breathe;

the filtered air of
buses and planes could
not satisfy the way
the sun suffocates
a summer day.

so just like a man
on the highway with
windows down i'll be
looking for my heart
in the great
wind.

3
hawks gather
over the highway,
gazing solid into
the trucker's high,
picking the flesh i
sold to heaven and
circling the atmosphere
while it gives way to
space.

i sit at a truck stop
eleven feet tall
to survey the evening.
every man craves
destiny or will stay
aimless at an inn
licking the skin of a
stranger or maybe
stay lonely.
it's hard to say
which is better.