wow its been eons
yeah, so it has been an extremely long time since i last posted. Needless to say...not as long as my last lapse in posting.
what can i say right now? I scraped up a $50 deposit for the Katrina Releif trip in Mississippi, only to find out that they cancelled my trip. So I had the money put into the Habitat for Humanity trip. That is not where i felt called to go. Luckily I was able to get the Katrina trip back on with the help of some people very special to me. But now, unfortunately i cannot get my $50 back. I am relatively upset about that. I feel like i shouldn't be. The $50 is going to the Habitat team and that's a good cause. It's just that $50 is so much, especially for me. It was all i could do to scrounge it up for the first time around, and how am i going to get another $50 in just 2 weeks for my trip? I pray that i can come into money and have the disgretion to use it wisely.
I really do feel that i am called to missions and it is hard to understant why the opportunities are not opening up the way i feel they should. i know God has the master plan and that his will is the best way, i just have trouble finding what exactly his will is for my life. The only thing that i am sure about is that my purpose is to serve. my purpose is to put all Gods' people before myself. I just don't understant what it is yet that i am supposed to DO to serve. I thought it was missions. SO why is everything so difficult?
what can i say right now? I scraped up a $50 deposit for the Katrina Releif trip in Mississippi, only to find out that they cancelled my trip. So I had the money put into the Habitat for Humanity trip. That is not where i felt called to go. Luckily I was able to get the Katrina trip back on with the help of some people very special to me. But now, unfortunately i cannot get my $50 back. I am relatively upset about that. I feel like i shouldn't be. The $50 is going to the Habitat team and that's a good cause. It's just that $50 is so much, especially for me. It was all i could do to scrounge it up for the first time around, and how am i going to get another $50 in just 2 weeks for my trip? I pray that i can come into money and have the disgretion to use it wisely.
I really do feel that i am called to missions and it is hard to understant why the opportunities are not opening up the way i feel they should. i know God has the master plan and that his will is the best way, i just have trouble finding what exactly his will is for my life. The only thing that i am sure about is that my purpose is to serve. my purpose is to put all Gods' people before myself. I just don't understant what it is yet that i am supposed to DO to serve. I thought it was missions. SO why is everything so difficult?