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sooooo fuckin frustrated right now. It's the first full week of the semester and I'm already done playing this game. Done. I guess you could say I have major senioritis. I just want to get out of school. I honestly don't want to RA anymore. I have no actual joy in it anymore. In the past year, three of my friends got fired or "let go" "not rehired" whatever they want to call it. For stupid reasons. I figure I'm next on the list somewhere. I'm tired of RDs talking stuff. If you have a problem or hear something. Come to me about what you heard not someone who wasn't there and definately don't take something word for word from somebody. Ugh. I just don't really give a shit anymore. An apartment would be soooo tempting right now it's not funny.
This semester is already fucking crazy. I have eleven books to read for ONE CLASS alone. Crime and Literature... so that's all I do: read. Read, read, go to class, read, RA stuff, duty, etc. I dunno what it is about this year but I can't take it already. Still applying for grad schools... waiting for stuff to get sent there. I almost don't even care if I don't get accepted. I'm really not gonna cry about it I don't think. A year off would be heaven to me. So I can work and do some interning. I don't want to be a RD or Graduate RA next year either. I hate the fact that I need to. But I don't really think I could do it again. Granted I meet some great people but you don't really meet people outside of your job. You are your title. RA "the enemy" and that is it. And a lot of people can't get passed that or you need to watch your back all the time. Which sadly I'm slacking off in lately.
Maybe it's a phase. Maybe I'm just angry cause I'm fed up, tired, and just want a break. I dunno. The bahamas trip can't come soon enough, that's for damn sure.
I work at my new job on Friday... at Dicks. Being the bitch that sets up the store, which I could care less about... keep me busy. cept that interfers with my reading for my english class and my feminist class (i love the lack of choices for seniors)
I broke things off with Hawaii, not that we really had anything... but...- he's reinlisting. So he won't be done till two thousand ten (some of my numbers don't work anymore- hence writing them out-damn laptop.) That's alright- I still talk to him every now and then but that's about it. I wished him luck and congratulated him because he's now a General.
to adam: I read it yea only cause I'm bored and to find out what you're up to. And I didn't check it every other day- i know sometimes i did but that was cause i was bored, so don't flatter yourself too much. I know we don't really talk but whatever. I honestly don't care anymore. Sorry if I was creepy. And thank you for deleting from myspace. It's okay. I deleted you off my buddy list. No worries.
If anyone CAN'T tell... I'm having a bad week. So don't take things too personally. Honestly. I'll be fine in a few days........
.... maybe.