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A feeling of disorientation, a fog disguising that which lies before and ahead. A sense of frustration and abandon. Feelings of detachment and apathy. Not good.
Only when "on stage" performing do i feel unbothered. Money consistently dwells on my thoughts and more and more i feel like a salary slave.
But the alternatives i do not understand or explore. Writing feels unfamiliar and i can only feel for those immediate needs, food, warmth, sleep.
Distractions distractions.