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training ground
real relationship? how is it different?
was it real for me? at times. i feel my ability to cry around you is a profound thing. these are feelings i don't have easy access to. and it says something that i can, with you. i think this inability comes strongly from not feeling comfortable. and it cpuld be that you made me confortable. or it could be that guilt and fear have driven me to such a place.
these are dificult thoughts to write down. i have a knot in my throat and my mind wanders into what else i could be doing to avoid dealing with this. sex comes to mind, and i think how a fleeting encounter with a stranger could do so much to dissolve my uneasiness.
comfortable for me.
feel like i will be a better friend
charlie-- medications...
real relationship? how is it different?
was it real for me? at times. i feel my ability to cry around you is a profound thing. these are feelings i don't have easy access to. and it says something that i can, with you. i think this inability comes strongly from not feeling comfortable. and it cpuld be that you made me confortable. or it could be that guilt and fear have driven me to such a place.
these are dificult thoughts to write down. i have a knot in my throat and my mind wanders into what else i could be doing to avoid dealing with this. sex comes to mind, and i think how a fleeting encounter with a stranger could do so much to dissolve my uneasiness.
comfortable for me.
feel like i will be a better friend
charlie-- medications...