anxiety attack...or a return to common sense?
Okay, I went to lie down to go to sleep and....bam...it hits me. My life is far from being hunky dorry. I can't even help Autumn pay the first mortgage payment because neither my husband or I have a job yet. I thought we were gonna be okay when I quit....but then the job he had fell into the toilet...I'm three months behind on my car payment and my bank account is negative over six hundred dollars...I did some quick math, and it will take around fifteen hundred to get me out of those two debts...then there are all the other ones. I am drowning in debt and have nothing I can do about it. The most I can do is hope I get a job bite ASAP and then pray that it won't take three weeks to get my first paycheck. It will take two or three paychecks to clear my account up, then Three or four more to catch me up on my car payments. I am at my wits' end with all of this. I have other debts then to worry about.I guess my options here are to spend more sleepless nights worrying until I can figure this shit out.If I hadn't destroyed my body, I could have sold my body for sex and had this all straightened out months ago. long story short. Maybe I'm better off dead.....shit. That won't work. My life insurance policy went byebye when I quit my job. So I guess I just sit here and hope these debts won't swallow me up whole. I had this whole idea of starting tarot reading parties as a business......but that takes time to drum up business and make it all work....anyone want to have a party where I come over and read cards? I still have to figure out the pricing...the general charge nowadays is around fifteen bucks for a fifteen minute reading...that makes it a dollar a minute....so I was figuring on charging fifty bucks for the first hour and thirty for every hour after that.......which would be a bit of a discount....or everyone pay ten bucks to get in. Or private sessions ...I dunno....but if i did that, I would be able to take in some cash.....I would insist on cash or a check....then maybe I can get my shit straight...my initial investment is already made...I've spent 7 years learning and already bought my deck....the one I've been using for the past 2 years. I figure I would start off with a quick little presentation to get a chance to debunk some myths about tarot, let people ask questions and stuff and then I would sit at a table I had set up and start reading cards. I would note first how long one of my readings take so that I can keep it under a certain amount of time. Many people will try to chide me for doing this for profit...saying it's against moral rules...but hey....it's for entertainment and if I help some people along the way, why not? The way I see it, I am desperate....and have nothing to offer the job world but my mediocre cooking and baking skills, and my past five years as a security guard. Honestly, though, I see no answer for me. I am desperate.