ugh
I can't help but wonder if something is screwing with my head. I obsess, yes...it is a part of my personality. I accept that.....but all of my obsessions have gone away the more time that goes by....I get bored or disenchanted and I move on. All save for one that keeps rearing its ugly head and has driven me insane...it's like I'm trapped in quicksand...the more I try to get rid of it, the more it plagues me. Enough already. I've had it. I love Jaysen and no one in this world can replace him. So I give up....this obsession can go away now. I feel like shit. My body hurts from work. I have a wedding to plan..yeay! Maybe if I can immerse myself in that, this nagging obsession will just go away. Hear me, yet? GO AWAY!I don't need to risk a good friendship for this shit. Ciao.