Men SUCK!
At least the ones I actually date. My friends are the only decent ones...maybe it's because I date them that they find it necessary to act like complete imbeciles. Jaysen.He's decided he's more in love with a married woman and that I am complete shit. I stood by him when Molly was ripping him apart. I was willing to help him through anything. I was going to marry him. Then all of a sudden, beacause I told him I insisted I come before Peg, he says he's not in love with me. That he doesn't love me. Does he realize what he's lost! I am shit. that's how I feel. plain and simple. I am caring and supportive. I may not be that beautiful, but I try to make up for it in other ways. Why can't he fucking see that! At least I have met a friend, ED, who will never be more than that, but knew exactly what I needed. Just as I was about to sit in my room and Bawl my eyes out, he calls and asks if I want to go have coffee....we go to Perkin's and run into the trio of friends I haven't seen in a while! (J, Jeff, and Fuzzy) Yeay! I felt a bit better, then we went out to edgewater and sat by the lake for a while talking about how much sexual tension is between us , which can never be acted on. We had a good laugh, I forgot Jaysen for a while.Makes me wish I had met him before he married his wife. That figures....either they're married, or gay! Waiting to hear from Jamie , who will be in town soon. I could really use her right now. Well, all, my time just freed up a bit, so any who want to see me...call! Ciao.