Financial woes rant
Not much had changed in the last little while.
I'm still on waiting lists for both colleges, so I have no idea what I'll be doing next year. Part of me is comfortable with the thought of taking a year off, but part of me is panicky enough about how long it'll be before I'm done school that adding another year is a very uncomfortable thought. Ah well, things will work out one way or another.
I'm not sure how I feel about starting work on Monday. The job (same thing I did last summer) isn't bad, it's just exhausting, and not what I wanted to be doing this summer. On the other hand, it's the only job I've been offered all year, and I am further in debt right now than I have been in the last two years. The only time I have ever owed more money than I do right now was when I bought my car, and I hate this feeling. I have been so careful with my finances this year, and my goal was to start putting money away so that I could have some sort of long-term savings. But I have spent the last eight months applying for every job I have seen advertised, and I have had ONE interview in that time. ONE. And I didn't even get that job. So instead of gettting ahead finacially, I've been living off the money I made last summer, and I hate it! I am so sick of budgeting, of having just enough money for gas to get myself to school, of paying for food or movie tickets on my visa rather than admitting to my friends who all want to go out that I just can't afford it, and having them all pity me or look down on me for my lack of money. It just hit me today how tired I am of all this. I'm not wishing I could win the lottery, or anything ridiculous like that, I'm just frusterated. This has been a very trying school year, and I can't believe how glad I am that it's over. I don't want to be rich, I just want to be able to spend a few dollars without worrying that because of that I won't have the money to buy gas to get to school/work. I want to be able to pay my insurance and phonebill every month, not owe that money to my mother. My first paycheque from work is going to have to go entirely to my mother or my visa, and I'm just fed up. I don't even use my visa very often, but when my brakes died on me the other day, I had no other way to pay for the repairs. I had, between my regular account and my saving account, less than twenty-five dollars to my name. That number has gone up a bit, but so have my debts.
I can't even put into words how much I am looking forward to having an income again.
I'm still on waiting lists for both colleges, so I have no idea what I'll be doing next year. Part of me is comfortable with the thought of taking a year off, but part of me is panicky enough about how long it'll be before I'm done school that adding another year is a very uncomfortable thought. Ah well, things will work out one way or another.
I'm not sure how I feel about starting work on Monday. The job (same thing I did last summer) isn't bad, it's just exhausting, and not what I wanted to be doing this summer. On the other hand, it's the only job I've been offered all year, and I am further in debt right now than I have been in the last two years. The only time I have ever owed more money than I do right now was when I bought my car, and I hate this feeling. I have been so careful with my finances this year, and my goal was to start putting money away so that I could have some sort of long-term savings. But I have spent the last eight months applying for every job I have seen advertised, and I have had ONE interview in that time. ONE. And I didn't even get that job. So instead of gettting ahead finacially, I've been living off the money I made last summer, and I hate it! I am so sick of budgeting, of having just enough money for gas to get myself to school, of paying for food or movie tickets on my visa rather than admitting to my friends who all want to go out that I just can't afford it, and having them all pity me or look down on me for my lack of money. It just hit me today how tired I am of all this. I'm not wishing I could win the lottery, or anything ridiculous like that, I'm just frusterated. This has been a very trying school year, and I can't believe how glad I am that it's over. I don't want to be rich, I just want to be able to spend a few dollars without worrying that because of that I won't have the money to buy gas to get to school/work. I want to be able to pay my insurance and phonebill every month, not owe that money to my mother. My first paycheque from work is going to have to go entirely to my mother or my visa, and I'm just fed up. I don't even use my visa very often, but when my brakes died on me the other day, I had no other way to pay for the repairs. I had, between my regular account and my saving account, less than twenty-five dollars to my name. That number has gone up a bit, but so have my debts.
I can't even put into words how much I am looking forward to having an income again.