Life Sucks
I'm tired of everything.. I'm tired of playing games I wish the "right" person would come along and be with me. I wish I was the way I want to look. I want to be out of the stupid school work but I don't want to not see my friends.... I want to have lots of money but I don't want to work ;). I'm just bored with my life as it is and then these fights with my mother don't help out any... I wish she would just give up her stupid petty control issues and get the stick out of her ass. I want to just fall asleep and have and everlasting dream... mainly because anything can happen in my dreams. Tonight was fun, but ashley scares me when she drives now. We saw Renae at the mall and I think I should have invited her to go with us it would have been fun. we went to short pump Town Center and ate and then we walked around and then did some other stuff. I spent most of my paycheck which makes me sad but it was only for $55 so I mean not like I had a lot of money to begin with... GOD I don't know what I want... I feel like all I want at the moment is to like get laid by someone or something... I always feel this empty feeling im my mind and I can't fill it with anything I do. I hate people that play stupid games or act certain ways when they are not what they are acting like. why can't people just be open with their feelings? Well, at least it feels good outside...