Depressed...
You were warned... So here's my rambles.
When I moved here to the house, I'd wanted a room to myself because I wasn't very close to Pat and had thought that getting a room each instead of sharing might be safer in the event that any conflict happens. Thankfully - really, I am happy about it - we have been living together really peacefully and am having quite a bit of fun even though I hadn't known Pat and GD well in NYP. Who'd have thought that we'll all make such ideal housemates...?
Then Xian and Xue had been forced to move out of their home because of issues, so it was decided that if they cannot find a house before their rent is up, we can always house them temoporarily.
I'm fine with that.
... Honestly, I am! After all, we have become pretty good friends - I hope 'tis feeling's mutual - since our time here in Aussie. Heck, I already knew Xue well when I was in NYP! She was in the same FYP group as me!!! Then came the bombshell last weekend after I came back from church.
Can they stay there permanently?
Okay, I'm going to bash myself for saying 'yes' without thinking when they asked me...
*cries* I tried thinking of ways that my room can be split, but there were conflicting feelings within me. After sunday, the thought still settled heavily in me... I'm not sure why. I mean, they've stayed over several times! In my room no less! Yet there wasn't once when I felt uncomfortable.
So why then, when it becomes them turning into 'permanent residents', that I feel uncomfortable. So much so that it's strickening me this badly? Is it because I want my private space? Or the alien idea of having to get used to living with another two persons? Or am I just plain selfish?
Whatever the reason is, I'm still feeling damned bad.
Finally mentioned to Pat about how my thoughts are with regards to having two new housemates... Ugh, instead of feeling better about it, I've feeling miserable still...
*cries*
I honestly hope that something good will come out of all of this.
Blah.
p/s: Today's D.I. test was tricky. Really tricky. Mon dieu.
When I moved here to the house, I'd wanted a room to myself because I wasn't very close to Pat and had thought that getting a room each instead of sharing might be safer in the event that any conflict happens. Thankfully - really, I am happy about it - we have been living together really peacefully and am having quite a bit of fun even though I hadn't known Pat and GD well in NYP. Who'd have thought that we'll all make such ideal housemates...?
Then Xian and Xue had been forced to move out of their home because of issues, so it was decided that if they cannot find a house before their rent is up, we can always house them temoporarily.
I'm fine with that.
... Honestly, I am! After all, we have become pretty good friends - I hope 'tis feeling's mutual - since our time here in Aussie. Heck, I already knew Xue well when I was in NYP! She was in the same FYP group as me!!! Then came the bombshell last weekend after I came back from church.
Can they stay there permanently?
Okay, I'm going to bash myself for saying 'yes' without thinking when they asked me...
*cries* I tried thinking of ways that my room can be split, but there were conflicting feelings within me. After sunday, the thought still settled heavily in me... I'm not sure why. I mean, they've stayed over several times! In my room no less! Yet there wasn't once when I felt uncomfortable.
So why then, when it becomes them turning into 'permanent residents', that I feel uncomfortable. So much so that it's strickening me this badly? Is it because I want my private space? Or the alien idea of having to get used to living with another two persons? Or am I just plain selfish?
Whatever the reason is, I'm still feeling damned bad.
Finally mentioned to Pat about how my thoughts are with regards to having two new housemates... Ugh, instead of feeling better about it, I've feeling miserable still...
*cries*
I honestly hope that something good will come out of all of this.
Blah.
p/s: Today's D.I. test was tricky. Really tricky. Mon dieu.