My Life In Retrospect
Been over a year since I made a journal entry.. Just read over every single one of my entries and having come to realize a lot of things.
Current Moodsic: Song (What I feel when it plays.)
Breaking Benjamin - Forget It (You messed up & I messed up. I wanna forgot it but not live without. Forgive me and come back to my life)
Army Of Me - Going Through Changes (I've come so far for nothing. I left too much of what is important behind)
12 Stones - Lie To Me (Lie to me and say your all still here, say its okay and that youll all come back)
Rise Against - Ready to Fall (Im ready to let everything go for all the mistakes ive made just to make it all right again)
Boys like Girls - Great Escape (I want one last night of the good and escape into it)
Lostprophets - Last Train Home (if im going nowhere, and if its not enough.. i have to find what i lost again)
Probably the most important year of my life was 2007. Thinking about it, I live more in my life that year than ever before or since. And I miss it. I miss the sweet nothings I never knew. I miss the fear of nothingess. I miss the days spent wasted. I miss doing stupid shit. It makes me wanna run away in the face of such certainty.
I will be rich in the next few years and I can do whatever I want then. But I dunno what that is anymore. I miss the things I thought I'd never do. I want them back. The nites spent wondering if I'll ever make it in this world. The nights I thought to myself maybe I am all alone. Even the nights I spent hating myself and the people that wronged me.
I miss the people I never thought I'd know, and the ones I never met.
I miss the people I saw once but never will forget.
I miss the places I saw once, and the places I called home.
I miss the places I never thought I'd be.
I miss the places I found myself and lost it all.
I miss the friends I made, and the ones I hardly knew.
I miss the friends I have that can't be here.
I miss the times I was carried away to places I had never seen.
I miss the times I loved, the times I cried, and the times that may never come again.
I miss the feelings for you all, and for the times we had.
But most of all I miss the world that hardly knew my name.
I dunno where I'm going anymore. I dunno what I want. But I know something is missing and whatever it is.. It use to be here. I found it in 2007, and lost it by 2008..
I know none of you are reading this but maybe you'll remember me someday.. and not for the mistakes I made, but for the happy times we had. The life we all were a part of.. I miss it, the life I didn't realize was better than I knew.
Final Thoughts: For the first time in my life I know where I am going and I am full of certainty and it feels wrong. I miss the things I've let slip away but I know they're gone forever.
Current Moodsic: Song (What I feel when it plays.)
Breaking Benjamin - Forget It (You messed up & I messed up. I wanna forgot it but not live without. Forgive me and come back to my life)
Army Of Me - Going Through Changes (I've come so far for nothing. I left too much of what is important behind)
12 Stones - Lie To Me (Lie to me and say your all still here, say its okay and that youll all come back)
Rise Against - Ready to Fall (Im ready to let everything go for all the mistakes ive made just to make it all right again)
Boys like Girls - Great Escape (I want one last night of the good and escape into it)
Lostprophets - Last Train Home (if im going nowhere, and if its not enough.. i have to find what i lost again)
Probably the most important year of my life was 2007. Thinking about it, I live more in my life that year than ever before or since. And I miss it. I miss the sweet nothings I never knew. I miss the fear of nothingess. I miss the days spent wasted. I miss doing stupid shit. It makes me wanna run away in the face of such certainty.
I will be rich in the next few years and I can do whatever I want then. But I dunno what that is anymore. I miss the things I thought I'd never do. I want them back. The nites spent wondering if I'll ever make it in this world. The nights I thought to myself maybe I am all alone. Even the nights I spent hating myself and the people that wronged me.
I miss the people I never thought I'd know, and the ones I never met.
I miss the people I saw once but never will forget.
I miss the places I saw once, and the places I called home.
I miss the places I never thought I'd be.
I miss the places I found myself and lost it all.
I miss the friends I made, and the ones I hardly knew.
I miss the friends I have that can't be here.
I miss the times I was carried away to places I had never seen.
I miss the times I loved, the times I cried, and the times that may never come again.
I miss the feelings for you all, and for the times we had.
But most of all I miss the world that hardly knew my name.
I dunno where I'm going anymore. I dunno what I want. But I know something is missing and whatever it is.. It use to be here. I found it in 2007, and lost it by 2008..
I know none of you are reading this but maybe you'll remember me someday.. and not for the mistakes I made, but for the happy times we had. The life we all were a part of.. I miss it, the life I didn't realize was better than I knew.
Final Thoughts: For the first time in my life I know where I am going and I am full of certainty and it feels wrong. I miss the things I've let slip away but I know they're gone forever.