Going away once again...
Tomorrow morning I'm leaving for my solitary(in terms of friends and family cause I still am a part of a group) trip in Turkey...I'll be gone for 8 days,until next Sunday...
I am excited but still a bit frightened since this is the first time that I'm completely responsible for my self...I got really anxious today...
In general,I'm having many small panic attacks thinking about how my life is gonna be from now on...I'm thinking that upon my return I'll probably have to look for an apartment of my own,paint it,furnish it...Yesterday,we went to a superstore and I got panicked realizing I'll be needing a kitchen,a fridge,a washing machine and all the other home essentials soon...And I keep having this image on my mind of me closing the door of a whole new place and being completely alone and I feel like bursting into tears...It's childish and I must to get a grip but right now I can't help it...
Anyway,thinking like that doesn't help at the moment so I'll try to think positively and get ready for the experience of the next week...
I'll deal with the future when it becomes present...(or that's what I keep telling myself...)
Talk to you in a week probably...(unless I find time and an internet connection...)
XXX