real update
So i thought i'd write something for real this time. Instead of just the great news of the breakup. Although my mom, vona, and jaime are as real as it gets around here. lol not sure what that means. Hey it's 830am. I dont have to sound smart right now. I feel like shit. My body is just worn the fuck out. I'm weak.. tired...want to sleep a lot....i dont know. My body is just going crazy right now. Too much fucking stress. I'm gonna lose it i'm sure. Nervous break down. Although i feel like if i wasnt on my meds then i would've already had a nervous break down. One can only take so much before they go crazy again. I'm not saying i'm going crazy.. sometimes i just feel like i am. I'll get over it. It's just all the stresses in my life. Life sure is a bitch. I got so much running through my mind but i cant say everything here. Certain things are meant to be secret. Or something like that. I need my vacation so fucking bad. It's not coming soon enough. I just want all the wrong shit in my life to be right and i want the right stuff to stay right. No more falling down. No more picking myself up. The good news is, even though i'm always falling down i always try to pick myself back up. At least i'm not like some people and just lay there. Waiting for someone to pick me up. I get back up on my feet and try walking again. This sounds so babyish--like a stupid kid analogy, but it's the best i could come up with given that my mind is currently being occupied by many other things. I'd say it sounds very logical for someone in my state of mind. So brandon called me yesterday which totally shocked the hell out of me. ALthough after i found out why he called i wasnt so shocked. He was pissed that i took the phones after he told me not to cuz he needed the numbers off the caller id. So i said i'd write them down. Still havent done that yet. I'll get right on that. HA! Anyways, i'm tired of thinking and writing...call me lazy.. go ahead.. i dare you.