SOB
it's been a week ago now that i was at the convention and in paris. meeting randy set something off within me, and NOT in the way you might think.
no........i had heard of his non-profit organization, the Arts Bureau, before and visited their website, but hearing him talk about it again somehow made me re-think what i wanted to do with my life. i think that was partially a reason for me crying on the train back to germany. loosing that connection i had with my re-instated dreams through randy.
i study a course called media production, and always when i look and listen to my fellow students, i see the difference between them and me. they study this in order to get a job in the industry, work for whatever clients want, as long as it's related to video and audio. which is just as good i guess. but i feel the need to use media as a way to produce work that comes from myself or that close friends would love to see realized. and that is EXACTLY what they do at the Arts Bureau. God, i'd love to be a part of it or start my own group. i would feel so much more productive in my life if i had something like that to work at/on besides another job (whatever that might be).
well, i understand that you don't just finish your studies and say: let's start a group that ralizes our own ideas, supported by donations only. i mean, i have to have some kind of steady income and job expirence....
...anyway. this realization made me think of the hobbies i haven't practiced in AGES: painting, writing short stories or poetry, etc. so therefore, i have started on a painting i think i'll call 'life lines'. i'll take a picture of it as soon as it's finished, but let me say that it'll mainly be about..well, my life, and important memories that go with it... it will contain photographs, poems i write, collage style elements...tons of materail really, so don't expect it to be finished any time soon.
and may be i'll find time, anywhere between uni and painting, to actually write someting again...
no........i had heard of his non-profit organization, the Arts Bureau, before and visited their website, but hearing him talk about it again somehow made me re-think what i wanted to do with my life. i think that was partially a reason for me crying on the train back to germany. loosing that connection i had with my re-instated dreams through randy.
i study a course called media production, and always when i look and listen to my fellow students, i see the difference between them and me. they study this in order to get a job in the industry, work for whatever clients want, as long as it's related to video and audio. which is just as good i guess. but i feel the need to use media as a way to produce work that comes from myself or that close friends would love to see realized. and that is EXACTLY what they do at the Arts Bureau. God, i'd love to be a part of it or start my own group. i would feel so much more productive in my life if i had something like that to work at/on besides another job (whatever that might be).
well, i understand that you don't just finish your studies and say: let's start a group that ralizes our own ideas, supported by donations only. i mean, i have to have some kind of steady income and job expirence....
...anyway. this realization made me think of the hobbies i haven't practiced in AGES: painting, writing short stories or poetry, etc. so therefore, i have started on a painting i think i'll call 'life lines'. i'll take a picture of it as soon as it's finished, but let me say that it'll mainly be about..well, my life, and important memories that go with it... it will contain photographs, poems i write, collage style elements...tons of materail really, so don't expect it to be finished any time soon.
and may be i'll find time, anywhere between uni and painting, to actually write someting again...