so finally I decided to update
So the Japanize exchange student left on Monday, making me know all the better that my time here is coming to an end. I have two weekends left and they are packed solid with parties and activities and it is sort of overwhelming. I need to get my guest family a gift and I have no idea what to give them.
I also have to write a paper to thank Daimler Chrystler for my scholorship and I haven't even started, but it should be fairly easy to write once I start because I have learned a lot this year.
I guess I figured when I came here that I wouldn't change that much, cause last summer I was right where I wanted to be and I was the person I had always wanted to be. But now I am a lot different and not exactly the person I want to be, but I have learned a lot more about who I am by being such a mess. This year was the hardest year of my life, a lot harder than when I was sick, a lot harder than the year I took Calculus. I grew up a lot, I realized things about my peers, I realized that I am not much of a teenager anymore, or at least I am not an akward whiney teenager anymore. I fought really hard this year, and in the end I realized that I didn't have to at all, that if I had just opened my mouth and asked for help I wouldn't have had it so hard at all. People keep asking me if I enjoyed my year and right now I am enjoying it, but on the whole I can't say that I did, I can't say that I would want to do it all over again, all I can say is I think it is good that I didn't enjoy something for once in my life because if I had lived my whole life being content or at least what I view now as being content I never would have grown as a person.
I am looking forward to seeing everyone again and hearing about everyones year, I know my year was something I'll never forget, even the 8 months that would have been better forgotten.
So the 16th I'll be home and I can't even imagine, I leave here on the 14th and I can't imagine that either. I just want to see everyone again cause everyone is a year older and I probably can't recognize anyone anymore.
I also have to write a paper to thank Daimler Chrystler for my scholorship and I haven't even started, but it should be fairly easy to write once I start because I have learned a lot this year.
I guess I figured when I came here that I wouldn't change that much, cause last summer I was right where I wanted to be and I was the person I had always wanted to be. But now I am a lot different and not exactly the person I want to be, but I have learned a lot more about who I am by being such a mess. This year was the hardest year of my life, a lot harder than when I was sick, a lot harder than the year I took Calculus. I grew up a lot, I realized things about my peers, I realized that I am not much of a teenager anymore, or at least I am not an akward whiney teenager anymore. I fought really hard this year, and in the end I realized that I didn't have to at all, that if I had just opened my mouth and asked for help I wouldn't have had it so hard at all. People keep asking me if I enjoyed my year and right now I am enjoying it, but on the whole I can't say that I did, I can't say that I would want to do it all over again, all I can say is I think it is good that I didn't enjoy something for once in my life because if I had lived my whole life being content or at least what I view now as being content I never would have grown as a person.
I am looking forward to seeing everyone again and hearing about everyones year, I know my year was something I'll never forget, even the 8 months that would have been better forgotten.
So the 16th I'll be home and I can't even imagine, I leave here on the 14th and I can't imagine that either. I just want to see everyone again cause everyone is a year older and I probably can't recognize anyone anymore.