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why is it that every time i have a boyfriend, im afraid that im going to fall for someone else? im afraid to get to know other people or make closer friends with outside people of the opposite sex. its so easy for me to fall. and im so deathly afraid not of cheating physically, but mentally. wondering, being curious what it would be like to be with them, being holding their hand instead, and how they would treat me. does this mean i am not satisfied with my current relationship? i think that i am, but the idea of someone new, someone else almost always excites me. am i doomed to never settle with anyone? is there one person who will catch my interest, and i will not be able to stray away? i need change, i need to be impulsive and spontaneous, i have no idea what my future entails and i refuse to plan ahead with any other person, but to instead make all the decisions on what is best for myself.
fuck it though. maybe i just should be single.
fuck it though. maybe i just should be single.