somethings you can explain away but the heart aches in me till this day
im sure i do my best thinking when i'm laying in bed in the morning refusing to get up
i made a blog... for work... or sketches of work....
http://mysmallwood.blogspot.com/
i dont really know why i made it... but there it is... a small distraction... a map of my progress
the first few posts have been up on lj before
my flat is having a little exhibition in the living room on saturday night... just a few bits and pieces of work going up
i was meant to have a tutorial today about my fax machines but i was too ill to leave the house... feeling better now... i'm really worried about the fax machines because theyre just so stale now... they were the much needed movement and now they dont move... im not even sure if they speak about moving...
i think im worried not only because of the fax machines but because of my state of mind i feel like i'm stuck...
i feel like im leaving myself behind...
i dont sleep well when im feeling at odds with the world... in the middle of april i felt that creeping up on me and went out and bought lavender linen spray and 'badger balm' which is lavender and some other such scents... its one of my first signs... when i stop being able to sleep... that something doesnt feel right... one of the left over signs from when i was at my worst... awake until 4/5am and sleeping in until 12/1pm i'm going to try and fix that... soon... when i'm feeling more like i can fix that... right now all i feel like i can do is watch futurama and try to get this art out of my head in a way that looks like it works
i'm ok though... externally i'm fine... i am functioning... it's just something in the back of my head keeping me awake... keeping me stuck... and that can be ignored for the best part
"You think you deserve that pain, but you don't."
i made a blog... for work... or sketches of work....
http://mysmallwood.blogspot.com/
i dont really know why i made it... but there it is... a small distraction... a map of my progress
the first few posts have been up on lj before
my flat is having a little exhibition in the living room on saturday night... just a few bits and pieces of work going up
i was meant to have a tutorial today about my fax machines but i was too ill to leave the house... feeling better now... i'm really worried about the fax machines because theyre just so stale now... they were the much needed movement and now they dont move... im not even sure if they speak about moving...
i think im worried not only because of the fax machines but because of my state of mind i feel like i'm stuck...
i feel like im leaving myself behind...
i dont sleep well when im feeling at odds with the world... in the middle of april i felt that creeping up on me and went out and bought lavender linen spray and 'badger balm' which is lavender and some other such scents... its one of my first signs... when i stop being able to sleep... that something doesnt feel right... one of the left over signs from when i was at my worst... awake until 4/5am and sleeping in until 12/1pm i'm going to try and fix that... soon... when i'm feeling more like i can fix that... right now all i feel like i can do is watch futurama and try to get this art out of my head in a way that looks like it works
i'm ok though... externally i'm fine... i am functioning... it's just something in the back of my head keeping me awake... keeping me stuck... and that can be ignored for the best part
"You think you deserve that pain, but you don't."