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Today I saw one of my best friends for the first time in months. That is kind of a lie. She is not just my best friends, she is my ex girlfriend. I tell people I am currently a non-practicing bisexual. I could probably say I was a non-practicing sexual, but that is a lament for another time. I loved Heather and we lived together for a few years. I realized that while I was loving Heather, we were not in love, and I was not committed to being in a committed relationship with a girl. I am kind of old fashioned for all my worldly ways. I knew that a relationship with a boy was the right fit for me.
Anyhow..that is a lot of exposition for the current situation.
Heather got really sick last year. Really sick, like "she might die" sick. After that, she started smoking pot with her current girlfriend to deal with the stress and depression. 8 years I have known her, she has gone from a cute little boi dyke with a killer body and a cocky swagger to this small little creature who shakes and cries. It is not just the pot...it is her self esteem and respect. She is currently on disability and she is in a relationship where she wants out and her gf is a serious addict. Now they have a guy living with them that is starting to deal out of their house and I am just bewildered. I feel like I am watching some bad after-school special. Today she came to me and told me that she was trying to sneak out of there and move home. She has to sneak out because she is scared of the reaction of the her gf and the live-in friend. They take advantage of her and use her for groceries and money. There are strangers pouring in and out of her house all the time, and she is on a lot of pain medications because of two back injuries and I am so afraid for her safety. I am afraid of not being able to save her. Mostly I am in awe that a life can fall to this level so quickly without any explanation.
I feel helpless to help. I am fairly oblivious to this world that she has gotten wrapped up in. I am the good girl. I work too much, stay home alot anymore..I am boring. All I can say is leave, go home, get out...but she is literally afraid for her life and I am so broken-hearted for the lost girl I knew. I pray that when she gets home, she can find her again, somewhere.
Anyhow..that is a lot of exposition for the current situation.
Heather got really sick last year. Really sick, like "she might die" sick. After that, she started smoking pot with her current girlfriend to deal with the stress and depression. 8 years I have known her, she has gone from a cute little boi dyke with a killer body and a cocky swagger to this small little creature who shakes and cries. It is not just the pot...it is her self esteem and respect. She is currently on disability and she is in a relationship where she wants out and her gf is a serious addict. Now they have a guy living with them that is starting to deal out of their house and I am just bewildered. I feel like I am watching some bad after-school special. Today she came to me and told me that she was trying to sneak out of there and move home. She has to sneak out because she is scared of the reaction of the her gf and the live-in friend. They take advantage of her and use her for groceries and money. There are strangers pouring in and out of her house all the time, and she is on a lot of pain medications because of two back injuries and I am so afraid for her safety. I am afraid of not being able to save her. Mostly I am in awe that a life can fall to this level so quickly without any explanation.
I feel helpless to help. I am fairly oblivious to this world that she has gotten wrapped up in. I am the good girl. I work too much, stay home alot anymore..I am boring. All I can say is leave, go home, get out...but she is literally afraid for her life and I am so broken-hearted for the lost girl I knew. I pray that when she gets home, she can find her again, somewhere.