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just got off work a lil bit ago dont have to work the next two days im super excited about that but at the same time im dreading it!!! when i work im so busy i dont tHink about IT but when im laying around the house with nothing to do first thing im goona wanna do is go get some shit and do it up al capone style but I WILL NOT!!!!! I AM BIGGER THAN THAT! I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT SHIT!!!!! anyways i was gonna meet the LT and the girlies at the Bull tonight but i dont wanna go out there alone and find out they arent getting out of work till uber late and not coming. Emma is being a party-pooper and doesnt wanna go with me i offered to pay her way in oh and i would have got you some gas too kid! but hey wahtev she wants to sleep when shes got the next three days off. . . .and you say you wanna be my friend. . HOGWASH. . . JK i love you get some sleep kiddo! me and brit hung out last night that was REALLY good for us especially with all thats goin down with her stupid brother corey. .you gay nut licking faggot muncher yeah i called you a faggot because wether you wanna admit it or not you are a gay bitch ass. . . MAN UP to what youve done PAY MY FRIGGIN MOM BACK!!!!! i know i already did and my debt was well over your 420 yes corey borrowed 420 dollars for rent (which is only 320) and didnt pay my mom back AND he didnt have his half for rent that month HMMMMMM i wonder where all that money went. . .corey would you like to explain that one to me?!?!?!?!? seriously are you gonna chew my ass out and then have this in your lil skelteton closet??? ugh im so over your bullshit hell lets be honest im over your immatureity and everything that has to do with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on the other side erica hates me and i dont understand why. . if its what you say then why are you with jon all the time he IS on that shit more than i ever WAS(note the uses of tenses)!!!! your my friggin little sister wether you want that anymore or not it sucks for you bc you stuck with it! i told you no matter what id be by your side and id have you back and i always have and in return i get lied to my face numerous times in a day, you talk shit about me to MY friends, and you fuckin play these littel bullshit games and im donw with it! im to old for your melodramatic life. . .yeah youve been through some shit but ive been there and ive seen it erica and you know that and to not hear a single word for three months nad then show up adn expect everythign to be fine and dandy after i hear all the shit you talk about me. . .then you say that the bullshitin is done it was all apart of doing coke and the next mother fuckin night you lie to me and get caught up in it and then run adn hide. . ..yeah i wanna stomp your face in but i would rather sit down face to face adn figure out what the BEEF is bc frankly im gettin old. . and im getting tired and worn out and i cant go on like this much longer. . .all i wanted was a my lil sister to be there to fuckin hang out and keep my ass in check but i guess once again ive learned you should NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING bc then you cant be let down!!!!!!!!
on happier sides talked to jillEbean tonight and it seriously was one of the best converstations ive had with her in so long. . .like since we used to sit in my room at all hours of the night talkin and just hangin out!! i was actually completely truthful with her. . .alot of times that i dont tell her the whole truth is bc i know she WILL be dissapointed in me. . .so if i make things look better than they are shell be ok with me and ill be able to see her and hang out but whats the use ifits bullshit- ya know. . . so yeah we were honest with each other and i know that NO MATTER WHAT-if i neeeded something her adn lauren would be the first ones there!!!! and that just blows my mind after all the heartache and pain ive caused them. . .they have been my rock the pst three years of my life and wehn i look back on things and im like man that person just did that for me WOW thats crazy but when it comes down to it when i truly needed that perosn to be there they werent and thats pretty much the story of my life execpt with lauren and jill (and suprisingly enougth to myself recently brittany) they always made sure i was takin care of! come on i slept on their couch for a month bc poppa dukes didnt (and still doesnt) know i got kicked out of school! even when they didnt agree with what i was doing they still had my back and supported me in whatever ways they could!!!!!!!!!! i pushed them so far away these past few months yet when i hit rick bottom and turned their way all they can do is open up there arms and love me and support me and help supply what i need to get better! i honestly can say i would be dead or locked up if it wasnt for those two keepin me in line and always givin me that random whats up havent heard form you in awhile call! i dunno it always helps to know SOMEONE out there is on your side!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay well i need to shower i stink like honey cured ham YUCK-O
on the other side erica hates me and i dont understand why. . if its what you say then why are you with jon all the time he IS on that shit more than i ever WAS(note the uses of tenses)!!!! your my friggin little sister wether you want that anymore or not it sucks for you bc you stuck with it! i told you no matter what id be by your side and id have you back and i always have and in return i get lied to my face numerous times in a day, you talk shit about me to MY friends, and you fuckin play these littel bullshit games and im donw with it! im to old for your melodramatic life. . .yeah youve been through some shit but ive been there and ive seen it erica and you know that and to not hear a single word for three months nad then show up adn expect everythign to be fine and dandy after i hear all the shit you talk about me. . .then you say that the bullshitin is done it was all apart of doing coke and the next mother fuckin night you lie to me and get caught up in it and then run adn hide. . ..yeah i wanna stomp your face in but i would rather sit down face to face adn figure out what the BEEF is bc frankly im gettin old. . and im getting tired and worn out and i cant go on like this much longer. . .all i wanted was a my lil sister to be there to fuckin hang out and keep my ass in check but i guess once again ive learned you should NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING bc then you cant be let down!!!!!!!!
on happier sides talked to jillEbean tonight and it seriously was one of the best converstations ive had with her in so long. . .like since we used to sit in my room at all hours of the night talkin and just hangin out!! i was actually completely truthful with her. . .alot of times that i dont tell her the whole truth is bc i know she WILL be dissapointed in me. . .so if i make things look better than they are shell be ok with me and ill be able to see her and hang out but whats the use ifits bullshit- ya know. . . so yeah we were honest with each other and i know that NO MATTER WHAT-if i neeeded something her adn lauren would be the first ones there!!!! and that just blows my mind after all the heartache and pain ive caused them. . .they have been my rock the pst three years of my life and wehn i look back on things and im like man that person just did that for me WOW thats crazy but when it comes down to it when i truly needed that perosn to be there they werent and thats pretty much the story of my life execpt with lauren and jill (and suprisingly enougth to myself recently brittany) they always made sure i was takin care of! come on i slept on their couch for a month bc poppa dukes didnt (and still doesnt) know i got kicked out of school! even when they didnt agree with what i was doing they still had my back and supported me in whatever ways they could!!!!!!!!!! i pushed them so far away these past few months yet when i hit rick bottom and turned their way all they can do is open up there arms and love me and support me and help supply what i need to get better! i honestly can say i would be dead or locked up if it wasnt for those two keepin me in line and always givin me that random whats up havent heard form you in awhile call! i dunno it always helps to know SOMEONE out there is on your side!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay well i need to shower i stink like honey cured ham YUCK-O