Major update lol
Well well well...
Hello again journal. Its been quite awhile. Things are so much different since I last posted years ago. Im 21 now and so many things have happend in em. Well my mom now lives in texas with my sister, my dad hit rock bottom, hopefully for the last time. He got his social security benefits hes living good. My dog that i loved so much I had to give him up, but he got adopted in 3 days of being there. I met the real love of my life. His name is Dustin. Oscar, ol dude across the street from where I used to live is outta my life. Fianlly. I've done some crazy things as be out kickin it all the time drinkin and not carin bout shit. I had my dads car so I could do whatever I want when I wanted. But it resulted in alotta mistakes. But it even goes back to 2008 hanging with yolanda fucked my life up. She was no good for me. Everything i ever had I lost. MY whole house just thrown out into the street. But back to Dustin.. I love this guy so much. I wanna marry him and he says the same about me. But I feel as if he doesnt though. He feels theres more out there. UGH theres just so much in my mind that I cant take anymore I feel so emotional drained and I cant possibly take it anymore. I dont wanna leave we have a home toegther and and a life. but I feel as if he wants someone else... I dunno i wish he would just talk to me and let me know whats real so I can stop hurting inside sometimes.. WHY WHY WHY. SOmething just go right for me once in my effin life ya know? Theres alot more but I just wanted to write something for now.. Makes me feel a little bit better.
Hello again journal. Its been quite awhile. Things are so much different since I last posted years ago. Im 21 now and so many things have happend in em. Well my mom now lives in texas with my sister, my dad hit rock bottom, hopefully for the last time. He got his social security benefits hes living good. My dog that i loved so much I had to give him up, but he got adopted in 3 days of being there. I met the real love of my life. His name is Dustin. Oscar, ol dude across the street from where I used to live is outta my life. Fianlly. I've done some crazy things as be out kickin it all the time drinkin and not carin bout shit. I had my dads car so I could do whatever I want when I wanted. But it resulted in alotta mistakes. But it even goes back to 2008 hanging with yolanda fucked my life up. She was no good for me. Everything i ever had I lost. MY whole house just thrown out into the street. But back to Dustin.. I love this guy so much. I wanna marry him and he says the same about me. But I feel as if he doesnt though. He feels theres more out there. UGH theres just so much in my mind that I cant take anymore I feel so emotional drained and I cant possibly take it anymore. I dont wanna leave we have a home toegther and and a life. but I feel as if he wants someone else... I dunno i wish he would just talk to me and let me know whats real so I can stop hurting inside sometimes.. WHY WHY WHY. SOmething just go right for me once in my effin life ya know? Theres alot more but I just wanted to write something for now.. Makes me feel a little bit better.