My apology
I sit here and wonder whats really going on..
Why I feel like this.. Why I say this
I can't remember a time when I was as scared as I am now
Afriad of losing you, afriad of making you sick..
I don't like the way this sounds.. but this is the only way to talk.
They all tell me I'm not worth this, not worth a fucking dime..
Maybe one day I'll show them, I'll show you all how great I am..
One day you will all crumble at my feet..
The feet that walk for miles, and miles in the sun,
This voice that will last a life time, eternies and such,
You'll never forget this face, the face that lights up at the sound,
You'll never forget my color, my tone, my heart.
This love that lasts forever and is so unconditional.
This life I've made is better, better then any of 3you will ever know.
Why is it that when everything looks so great, the wrapping just falls off,
leaving you disapointed in what you actually find.
Now don't get me wrong I live and breathe like you all.
The only differance is my lood runs fast through my veins.
This eyes you see are perfect, just like you all want.
These hazel eyes will show you things you've never even dreamed of.
I have an awful past where blood ran every night.
Where there was no such thing as smiles and perfect rainbows.
Where sleeping wasn't needed, if you choose to sleep you knew,
That the monster would come out grining his one gun held up high.
The gods never smiled down on me, or my house for that matter.
But the day that the monster kicked me out, my freedom was finally granted.
I ran and ran, until finally I met you, your face so gentle and caring,
Your touch so soft yet real.
You showed me things that I never thought I could see.
Gave me things I thought so out of my reach.
Sometimes I know, that I can be unattainable, that I just don't listen at all.
I'm not a great cook, cleaner, or anything like that at all.
I know that I act silly, and stupid and strange all at once..
How hard that must be for you, how increadibly odd.
You'll never know what my eyes are telling you, but look close and get a clue.
This heart beats now for one person, and that person is you.
Why I feel like this.. Why I say this
I can't remember a time when I was as scared as I am now
Afriad of losing you, afriad of making you sick..
I don't like the way this sounds.. but this is the only way to talk.
They all tell me I'm not worth this, not worth a fucking dime..
Maybe one day I'll show them, I'll show you all how great I am..
One day you will all crumble at my feet..
The feet that walk for miles, and miles in the sun,
This voice that will last a life time, eternies and such,
You'll never forget this face, the face that lights up at the sound,
You'll never forget my color, my tone, my heart.
This love that lasts forever and is so unconditional.
This life I've made is better, better then any of 3you will ever know.
Why is it that when everything looks so great, the wrapping just falls off,
leaving you disapointed in what you actually find.
Now don't get me wrong I live and breathe like you all.
The only differance is my lood runs fast through my veins.
This eyes you see are perfect, just like you all want.
These hazel eyes will show you things you've never even dreamed of.
I have an awful past where blood ran every night.
Where there was no such thing as smiles and perfect rainbows.
Where sleeping wasn't needed, if you choose to sleep you knew,
That the monster would come out grining his one gun held up high.
The gods never smiled down on me, or my house for that matter.
But the day that the monster kicked me out, my freedom was finally granted.
I ran and ran, until finally I met you, your face so gentle and caring,
Your touch so soft yet real.
You showed me things that I never thought I could see.
Gave me things I thought so out of my reach.
Sometimes I know, that I can be unattainable, that I just don't listen at all.
I'm not a great cook, cleaner, or anything like that at all.
I know that I act silly, and stupid and strange all at once..
How hard that must be for you, how increadibly odd.
You'll never know what my eyes are telling you, but look close and get a clue.
This heart beats now for one person, and that person is you.