galau #3

[sillyjowiee]

 you ask me to choose
i dont know what to choose
i love you too much
though i know
we wont have future
but then
it's like you let me go that easy
it's like it's ok if i choose to leave you

i keep wondering do you really love me?
you started this and now it's like easy for you to just end this

i know i act like a girl
that i want you to hold me and say please dont leave me
i dont care if that makes you feel like a jerk 
but i want to feel to be loved

i am okay you with him i accept that as a package
but i still human
i need to feel loved
not just a fling
that anytime you can lave without anything

do you really love me?
i feel like i am alone in this
i am the one who keep try to understand everyone
but where is everyone when i need them
or you?

do you even know when i cry thinking of you?
do you even know how i am try to accept all his insult?
you said he is your problem?
but where are you when i try to stand ?
i dont want to blame you
but i want you to say you love me
like you mean it