boys......
i don't think i need any advise with this one guys, i just need to get it all out. see, there is this boy. man really, since he is almost 28 now. and i like him a lot. the thing is, i don't know what to do about it. (does it seem like i have this problem a lot to anyone else? *sigh*) anyway, there are actually a couple valid reasons why i don't know what to do with him. actually it is just one really big one. he is going through a divorce. yup. the one thing that i hope never, ever to do in my whole life. the reason why this is a problem is that i don't know how to approach him about certain things. yes, we've talked about his relationship with her, but only in general terms. yes, we've talked about what kind of relationship we would classify ours as, (which is "see what happens") but i like this guy a lot. i want more than that with him, but i know i have to give him time so that if/when he decides to have another relationship, he wont want to go elsewhere because i've pushed him to far, to fast. i guess i'm at a point in my life that i do want a serious relationship. doesn't have to be one where we're looking to get married, but something longer than my past relationships, which you all know, has not been that long. i want someone who when i get home from work, i get a phone call at least, or get to see them not because there is great sex involved, (and believe me, with him, it is AWSOME sex....*grin*) but because they WANT to talk to me, WANT to see me, and that isn't because they want some. it's because they care about me. i like the whole being held thing. he spent the night friday, and saturday morning, he had duty, so he had to leave early. he was in my bed for one night, and when he left it, i felt more lonely than i have in a long time. i must have woken up reaching over there looking for him 5-6 times while i was sleeping. i don't know what to do about this. that was the first time i have spent the night sleeping with a guy in i don't know how long. i don't know how to talk to him about this, cause he has more shit on his plate than i would ever want to deal with, but i want him to know. *sigh* he takes my breath away sometimes when i see him. i don't know how other females look at him, but to me he is sexy as shit in a skinney ass, freakin tall dude kinda way. it feels good when we are together, even if we are not even sitting that close to each other. he gives me butterflies when he looks at me, and sometimes i find myself staring at him, for no reason. i think about him all the time, even at work, when i shouldn't be. sexually, he is an awsome, if not perfect fit. he kisses me exactly how i like to be kissed, he's good on foreplay, and as for the rest......god...... but anyway, i just needed to vent a little bit. i'll probably be doing that a bit more often now. i have a feeling that this relationship, whatever it is, is going to confuse and frustrate me. so i will talk to you guys later. luv u!
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