Eh, just another day.
Incomplete and empty are the two words that describe the way I am feeling right now. I have the want to call him, but I have to stay strong. Eh, this just sucks.
Anyways, my mom and I got into it at work today due to the crappy people that try and run this office. Thankfully though, we talked about it after she got home and so things were cool with us. So at least that is good.
Ah, the rain. Maybe I will be able to sleep tonight. I really had a hard time last night and I struggled to get up this morning for my 9 o'clock class. Thankfully, Wednesday I will be able to work on some things with school and sleep when I get out of my lab.
I am just dealing with a lot of stress and emotions right now. I think about what I would want to say to Chad all day and how I could just write it into words, but I swear that it would end up into the size of a book. I really thought about what he said about forcing myself to be okay… but I truthfully can’t do that. I probably never will because that means I would not be listening to my heart. And what is the point of forcing yourself to not feel what is in your heart? Or maybe I am just being too sensitive, but I guess that comes with being a girl. Who knows what the future will bring, but I know one thing is for sure; my life will never be the same.
Until next time...
Stay dry!
Anyways, my mom and I got into it at work today due to the crappy people that try and run this office. Thankfully though, we talked about it after she got home and so things were cool with us. So at least that is good.
Ah, the rain. Maybe I will be able to sleep tonight. I really had a hard time last night and I struggled to get up this morning for my 9 o'clock class. Thankfully, Wednesday I will be able to work on some things with school and sleep when I get out of my lab.
I am just dealing with a lot of stress and emotions right now. I think about what I would want to say to Chad all day and how I could just write it into words, but I swear that it would end up into the size of a book. I really thought about what he said about forcing myself to be okay… but I truthfully can’t do that. I probably never will because that means I would not be listening to my heart. And what is the point of forcing yourself to not feel what is in your heart? Or maybe I am just being too sensitive, but I guess that comes with being a girl. Who knows what the future will bring, but I know one thing is for sure; my life will never be the same.
Until next time...
Stay dry!