i seen 3 men hanging from a sycamore
well tonight was fun even though asshole mode kicked in when the movie started getting mooshey.i mean im totally all for jeremiah and dieanna dating but yeah tonite for some reason i felt totally alone in that theater.and i almost couldnt take it i have to admit im jealous of you jeremiah.you have a wonderful girlfriend who loves you and loves to be around you i hope that someday i will have someone like that. but im pretty much the asshole out of the three of us so i guess there couldnt be anyone out there who is into an insensitive ass. much love to you all especially those of you i have wronged. i never thought i would ever apologize for anything that i have done to others mainley because i always thought thati showed you as weak and personally i find it harder to show a compassionate side then it is to show myself as an asshole. i really am hating myself right now mainly because i know that i will never achieve anything that i want to achieve in my life. maybe thats why im such a jerk ,maybe because of all this self doubt is why im so incompassionate,maybe because of the fact that i know ill never be the person my parents never wanted me to be is why i just close myself to everyone and try to mask it with this since of happieness and overjoy. im soo sorry jermiah and seth for being this totally obnoxious kid. and im sorry ashley for never being the kind of guy you wanted and im sorry charlotte for not treating you better.