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my sarcasim makes my world go 'round
i got home early. way early. and now im bored.
all i can think of is how yet again, i lost it. i miss it. and i dont understand whats up but ...yeah whatever.. (my new saying) im over it
i dont understand the point of acidemics in college, if u know what u want there should be nothing getting in your way. especially if its completely off topic of what u need. i mean learning another language is okay. and taking a writing coarse is good too, those can be required... but history, unless ur doing n e thing social or historical its not worth it. less beginning crap classes will make it more timely, exciting and worth my money. thats why i say screw bcc. that was such a bad choice on my part. an utter waste of my money... and i mean, MY money, out of MY pocket... not my parents. but i learned... lol nothing from the school (although my math class was incredible. *that was worth it..i would pay double of what the class cost to take it again) but i learned that i have to look way deeper into things b4 i make a decision like that again.
i noticed that i like to flaunt the fact that i pay for everything i need . (aside from water, a heated house, and most furnature i sit on) i like the fact that i work my butt off and i own what i have. it makes me feel more in control. being in control of everything that i pay for, makes it so much more sweeter when i buy a cd, or whatever i feel like i want.
but not only making money. i love maintaining my house, like when my rents are at work and ill grocery shop for us, and clean up the house do some laundry and cook a big meal by the time they get home. it just feels right
i was thinking about college and the future and what i really want to do. and i was thinking about like what i would really really want to do. because on one hand i want to be a comedian i wanna act on madtv or something like that. i truely do but on the other hand i want to have a family. a normal one. the type i grew up with. i want to be involved in my childrens life. i wanna stay at home make dinner, clean house and whatever else. i realize this is kinda way out there but i want my kids to have a normal life. and i want my slef to too. i guess. n e way wow way off of the topic i wanted to be on..
so n e way. i was thinking about jobs and life and shwatever! and how whatever n e one is going for, its something that (should) make them happy.... and i was thinking about thinks that truely made my happy... deep down i like to do, even if it is work or whatever, it makes my happy and want to do. at first i came up with sports... like gym or whatever, but id rather participate in them than teach or whatever, (so coaching is an option **always has been) okay next of coarse was acting.. but i mean ive always known i will try it nomatter what..but the point of this exercise was to find something as a full time thing so i can work my way to acting... (pay my way) and i came up with cooking.. ive always told my mom since i was lil that i wanted to be a chef (with exception of the goofy hat) I love being in my kitchen with fresh food just bought from the market and just creating... i dont know. thats all ive got to say... ramble much?
all well........
i got home early. way early. and now im bored.
all i can think of is how yet again, i lost it. i miss it. and i dont understand whats up but ...yeah whatever.. (my new saying) im over it
i dont understand the point of acidemics in college, if u know what u want there should be nothing getting in your way. especially if its completely off topic of what u need. i mean learning another language is okay. and taking a writing coarse is good too, those can be required... but history, unless ur doing n e thing social or historical its not worth it. less beginning crap classes will make it more timely, exciting and worth my money. thats why i say screw bcc. that was such a bad choice on my part. an utter waste of my money... and i mean, MY money, out of MY pocket... not my parents. but i learned... lol nothing from the school (although my math class was incredible. *that was worth it..i would pay double of what the class cost to take it again) but i learned that i have to look way deeper into things b4 i make a decision like that again.
i noticed that i like to flaunt the fact that i pay for everything i need . (aside from water, a heated house, and most furnature i sit on) i like the fact that i work my butt off and i own what i have. it makes me feel more in control. being in control of everything that i pay for, makes it so much more sweeter when i buy a cd, or whatever i feel like i want.
but not only making money. i love maintaining my house, like when my rents are at work and ill grocery shop for us, and clean up the house do some laundry and cook a big meal by the time they get home. it just feels right
i was thinking about college and the future and what i really want to do. and i was thinking about like what i would really really want to do. because on one hand i want to be a comedian i wanna act on madtv or something like that. i truely do but on the other hand i want to have a family. a normal one. the type i grew up with. i want to be involved in my childrens life. i wanna stay at home make dinner, clean house and whatever else. i realize this is kinda way out there but i want my kids to have a normal life. and i want my slef to too. i guess. n e way wow way off of the topic i wanted to be on..
so n e way. i was thinking about jobs and life and shwatever! and how whatever n e one is going for, its something that (should) make them happy.... and i was thinking about thinks that truely made my happy... deep down i like to do, even if it is work or whatever, it makes my happy and want to do. at first i came up with sports... like gym or whatever, but id rather participate in them than teach or whatever, (so coaching is an option **always has been) okay next of coarse was acting.. but i mean ive always known i will try it nomatter what..but the point of this exercise was to find something as a full time thing so i can work my way to acting... (pay my way) and i came up with cooking.. ive always told my mom since i was lil that i wanted to be a chef (with exception of the goofy hat) I love being in my kitchen with fresh food just bought from the market and just creating... i dont know. thats all ive got to say... ramble much?
all well........