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A lot of times, I forget how catharctic it is to write here. I really ought to do it more often, but there are so few occasions that I'm alone enough with my thoughts to write them down.
Mike started his second job. In order for us to save for this wedding, he had to. I feel horrible for that, but I keep trying to remind myself that it will only be for a little while. I'm not counting on my dad's contribuition. I'm not saying that to be mean, but his health isn't the greatest, so I don't even know if he will be there. That is sad to me. It all depends on what the doctors find. Jessica doesn't know anything about the cancer, and that's a good thing for right now. She doesn't need to know until after the wedding.
I've picked out my wedding dress. It's really pretty. I don't really have a great picture of it, but once I do (people are supposed to be emailing them to me) I will post them. It's very simple, but it will be nice. It's from David's although they kind of suck in customer service.
I'm excited to actually be married. I think it will be fun. I've started thinking about how weird it will be to be a Kozina now. :) I like it, but it will take some getting used to. I'm worried about all the people who say that even though you've lived together for two years it all changes when you get married. I'm like, "What!? How can it change anymore than it already has?" We are already all in each other's spaces and crap. I don't know how people who do it the "right" way survive. It's like, merging lives together is scary and complicated, but now...if it doesn't work...it's a lot harder to get out of if you're married.
Mike and I are both very stubborn people. I think that's good in a lot of ways...like when we agree on stuff. But he likes to disagree with me on purpose...just for the sake of argument a lot times. You know how boys just make stuff up to sound smart? Like, "Oh, what is that?" "Well, little lady, that's a blah blah blah...." I hate that. If you don't know just say you don't know. I'd rather GOOGLE it then listen you ramble. HAHAH! Mike does that a lot. Most of the time it's funny.
I wonder if Dave Matthews pisses his wife off? I'm sure.
It will be weird to be a "wife." I'm scared of that.
It's not a bad scared, it will just be a change. Change blows. I've never been married before, so I don't know if what I'm feeling is normal. I hope it is. Actually, I don't even know what I'm feeling. Scared, happy, worried, happy. I don't know. I know I'm happy. I should just focus on that.
On a lighter note, and also an advertisement for paying the extra money to not have your telephone number put in the book, my freaking fat aunt Tina called me the other day, and left a message on my machine that she found my name and number in the new book. Someone kill me. Now she can find me. I hate that woman. She is a total choad. She's not even invited to Jessica's wedding, and she's been calling my mom non-stop and Dad, too. She's just LOOKING for that invitation! She's not getting one, and that cracks me up. All we would have to tell her is that it's not all you can eat, (even thought it's a buffet) and she probably wouldn't come. We should tell her that we're just having cheese and crackers. Seriously, if she shows up, I don't know what we would do. It's not like a white trash wedding, so we couldn't like fight her. I'd hike up my dress and freak out on her if she was about to ruin the wedding. I would dig deep and find that Zephyrhills girl who fights at weddings. HAHAHAHAH!
-Jocelyn
Mike started his second job. In order for us to save for this wedding, he had to. I feel horrible for that, but I keep trying to remind myself that it will only be for a little while. I'm not counting on my dad's contribuition. I'm not saying that to be mean, but his health isn't the greatest, so I don't even know if he will be there. That is sad to me. It all depends on what the doctors find. Jessica doesn't know anything about the cancer, and that's a good thing for right now. She doesn't need to know until after the wedding.
I've picked out my wedding dress. It's really pretty. I don't really have a great picture of it, but once I do (people are supposed to be emailing them to me) I will post them. It's very simple, but it will be nice. It's from David's although they kind of suck in customer service.
I'm excited to actually be married. I think it will be fun. I've started thinking about how weird it will be to be a Kozina now. :) I like it, but it will take some getting used to. I'm worried about all the people who say that even though you've lived together for two years it all changes when you get married. I'm like, "What!? How can it change anymore than it already has?" We are already all in each other's spaces and crap. I don't know how people who do it the "right" way survive. It's like, merging lives together is scary and complicated, but now...if it doesn't work...it's a lot harder to get out of if you're married.
Mike and I are both very stubborn people. I think that's good in a lot of ways...like when we agree on stuff. But he likes to disagree with me on purpose...just for the sake of argument a lot times. You know how boys just make stuff up to sound smart? Like, "Oh, what is that?" "Well, little lady, that's a blah blah blah...." I hate that. If you don't know just say you don't know. I'd rather GOOGLE it then listen you ramble. HAHAH! Mike does that a lot. Most of the time it's funny.
I wonder if Dave Matthews pisses his wife off? I'm sure.
It will be weird to be a "wife." I'm scared of that.
It's not a bad scared, it will just be a change. Change blows. I've never been married before, so I don't know if what I'm feeling is normal. I hope it is. Actually, I don't even know what I'm feeling. Scared, happy, worried, happy. I don't know. I know I'm happy. I should just focus on that.
On a lighter note, and also an advertisement for paying the extra money to not have your telephone number put in the book, my freaking fat aunt Tina called me the other day, and left a message on my machine that she found my name and number in the new book. Someone kill me. Now she can find me. I hate that woman. She is a total choad. She's not even invited to Jessica's wedding, and she's been calling my mom non-stop and Dad, too. She's just LOOKING for that invitation! She's not getting one, and that cracks me up. All we would have to tell her is that it's not all you can eat, (even thought it's a buffet) and she probably wouldn't come. We should tell her that we're just having cheese and crackers. Seriously, if she shows up, I don't know what we would do. It's not like a white trash wedding, so we couldn't like fight her. I'd hike up my dress and freak out on her if she was about to ruin the wedding. I would dig deep and find that Zephyrhills girl who fights at weddings. HAHAHAHAH!
-Jocelyn