Europe for a year
I figured it out. Finally. It's not that I don't like it up here, it's just that I haven't tried to like it. Dating Conor while fun was probably the worst idea I have ever had. I had such a fun last few weeks in Seattle it made me angry that I had to come up here and start out brand new... with no one. And what did I spend my time doing? Going home or talking to Conor or doing homework. Then after that ended I just decided it was time to hate life. Hate Jeff. Hate Conor. Hate Canada.
But you know what? It isn't that bad. Everyone up here likes me. People are so nice. This school is a great school. While I don't love dorming, it isn't so bad. Me hating life up here was my own fault because I didn't try to like it.
So what am I going to do? I am going to do a year abroad I think. Stay here for this year then next year go to either Italy, Ireland, England or France. All I wanted to do for the past few weeks was take time off and travel but my rents weren't up for that. So why not just go to Europe and study? What do I have to loose?
And moving back to Seattle would really not be wonderful. All I would be doing is hanging out with all of my friends who are no longer in high school and working and going to school. Why settle for that? I am young. I have so much to learn. And so little time in which I can just pick up and go to Europe for a year. Then I would just come back here for the year and be done. Can you imagine? Europe for a year! And with no one and no relationships behind. Because those will fuck me up.
Europe for a year! Why did i never think about this before??
By the way get Crazy Love by Van Morrison. It is the greatest love song. It is beautiful. There is a version with Bob Dylan and a different one with Ray Charles... both are great.
But you know what? It isn't that bad. Everyone up here likes me. People are so nice. This school is a great school. While I don't love dorming, it isn't so bad. Me hating life up here was my own fault because I didn't try to like it.
So what am I going to do? I am going to do a year abroad I think. Stay here for this year then next year go to either Italy, Ireland, England or France. All I wanted to do for the past few weeks was take time off and travel but my rents weren't up for that. So why not just go to Europe and study? What do I have to loose?
And moving back to Seattle would really not be wonderful. All I would be doing is hanging out with all of my friends who are no longer in high school and working and going to school. Why settle for that? I am young. I have so much to learn. And so little time in which I can just pick up and go to Europe for a year. Then I would just come back here for the year and be done. Can you imagine? Europe for a year! And with no one and no relationships behind. Because those will fuck me up.
Europe for a year! Why did i never think about this before??
By the way get Crazy Love by Van Morrison. It is the greatest love song. It is beautiful. There is a version with Bob Dylan and a different one with Ray Charles... both are great.