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I cant really explain what i feel. All i know is, that i dont feel very good. Am i sad? Devistated? Hopeful? Crushed... yeaaa. all of that, i think. If i knew that i would never kiss another man again, i would be ok with that... knowing that i have him. Do i have him? Im still so confused. all i know for sure is that i love him... more than i love myself. I know its bad, but oh well, it happened. its gotten to the point where i need him so that i can be ok. if i lose him, i know that i will never be the same. He showed me something i never felt before, and without him, i won't feel it again. it will never be the same. I just dont know how to convince him... i doubt anyone still reads this, but it makes me feel better to vent... i love you bryan. i always will.