*OUCH!*
So once again i'm sitting here with a headache and praying for it to go away before i beat it out of my own head. It seems like there are three type of people in the world... the kind that get frequent headaches (like me and krystina), the people who get rare headaches(like once a year) and people who have never had a headache ever! To those people i really despise you right now. Don't take it to heart though because its just chemical imbalance or whatever causes my headaches. This is the weirdest one ever though. Everything i touch and that touches me feels like velvet. It even feels like i'm looking through velvet. Its the strangest thing ever. I have been getting interesting headaches latley. The last one i had was the night of Zach's birthday party. My head would complely spazm and i would lean forward and arc my head down. Plus it felt like the world was kinda lagging. Like i would be looking at something and then someone would put something in front of me and i would complely freak out because all of a sudden it was there. I don't know... i guess i should go to the doctors for this but they'll proably do what they did for my sister. They'll just look at me and say "your faking your headaches to get out of classes arn't you?" I don't want to deal with that shit. Doctors are stupid sometimes. They even tried to scare my sister into confessing saying that she would need a shot every time she got another migrane. My mom yelled at them like they should have been but still. It's extremely hard to fake a migrane. You can tell. Next time you see me and it looks like i had the worst day ever and my face is distored, i have tears streaming down my cheeks, i'm sheilding my eyes from all the light, and i'm covering my ears from all the sound you know that i have a migrane. Can't someone take over my headaches for one day please?
I kinda wish that could be done. Just kinda take a break from pain and have someone else feel it for you for a day. That would be absolutly great right now. Its not always just my head that hurts its the look on Fise's face when he sees me and he knows i have another one. It's just this sad look because he hates to see me go through them. The worst ones nobody has ever seen. I remember when i was in high school i closed my windows, my blinds, closed my curtains and threw blankets over them. I also shoved blankets under my door and all the way around to block out all the light... i stayed like that for 4 days straight, only leaving to pee and maybe get a scrap of food if i decided i wanted to fight to keep it down. I stayed like that for 4 days. I dread the next time another one like that will come. Does someone want to swap pain receptors one of those days? It would be greatly appreciated. Well if your still reading... i'll give you props. Even i wouldn't read all of this depressing shit. Don't feel sorry for me either... that'snot why i'm posting it... i'm just pissed and i needed to get it off my chest. Eveyone lives with problems... this is mine.
I'm off to bed... Goodnight everyone... I'll be ok.
I kinda wish that could be done. Just kinda take a break from pain and have someone else feel it for you for a day. That would be absolutly great right now. Its not always just my head that hurts its the look on Fise's face when he sees me and he knows i have another one. It's just this sad look because he hates to see me go through them. The worst ones nobody has ever seen. I remember when i was in high school i closed my windows, my blinds, closed my curtains and threw blankets over them. I also shoved blankets under my door and all the way around to block out all the light... i stayed like that for 4 days straight, only leaving to pee and maybe get a scrap of food if i decided i wanted to fight to keep it down. I stayed like that for 4 days. I dread the next time another one like that will come. Does someone want to swap pain receptors one of those days? It would be greatly appreciated. Well if your still reading... i'll give you props. Even i wouldn't read all of this depressing shit. Don't feel sorry for me either... that'snot why i'm posting it... i'm just pissed and i needed to get it off my chest. Eveyone lives with problems... this is mine.
I'm off to bed... Goodnight everyone... I'll be ok.