Hello Again
Hey there stranger.
it's been so long since i wrote in this.. i really haven't had time to write really, things are going so fast sometimes i don't feel like i can even breathe..
Keigan and I have been together for two months. :)
although im always completely paranoid that im messing things up with him..
but, things are going well.
he's the first guy whos ever really cared about me
YES FOLKS. I FOUND A GUY WHO CARES.
he's the first guy whose ever held my hand in public
kissed me in public
it's an amazing feeling to know they aren't embaressed and they just want everyone to know that they're with you
that my friends is a breath of fresh air in itself.
I feel like really the only time i calm down and can actually take a breath is when im with him.
i also feel like i could never tell him any of this. which is sad..
NSSSA:) im going. it's going to be bomb.
i think we're having a sleepover tomorrow.. me and keigan.. but im not sure. theres just some things we need to talk about and think about.. gah. damn.
highschool is different this year..
rachelle is no longer my friend.. and this makes me sad.
the one person i could always count on is gone. and i guess we all need to move on. but it's just like.. i have no closure..because i guess i just don't understand why?
Kayte and i..
we weren't friends a long time ago.
although if she ever breaks up with mike she knows im there
sometimes it feels as though everyone around me has changed
when really, it's I who has changed. i've changed from a bitter person to a person who loves the world
i can't be a total bitch anymore. it's not possible.
and it's funny, sometimes i still feel pangs of jealousy for things that happened in the past, and things that are going on now.
but than i reflect on how amazing i have it right now
and how amazing my incredible boyfriend is
2 months and counting baby :)
anyway. Im gunna go.
i'll write you again stranger.
<3 ashleigh
it's been so long since i wrote in this.. i really haven't had time to write really, things are going so fast sometimes i don't feel like i can even breathe..
Keigan and I have been together for two months. :)
although im always completely paranoid that im messing things up with him..
but, things are going well.
he's the first guy whos ever really cared about me
YES FOLKS. I FOUND A GUY WHO CARES.
he's the first guy whose ever held my hand in public
kissed me in public
it's an amazing feeling to know they aren't embaressed and they just want everyone to know that they're with you
that my friends is a breath of fresh air in itself.
I feel like really the only time i calm down and can actually take a breath is when im with him.
i also feel like i could never tell him any of this. which is sad..
NSSSA:) im going. it's going to be bomb.
i think we're having a sleepover tomorrow.. me and keigan.. but im not sure. theres just some things we need to talk about and think about.. gah. damn.
highschool is different this year..
rachelle is no longer my friend.. and this makes me sad.
the one person i could always count on is gone. and i guess we all need to move on. but it's just like.. i have no closure..because i guess i just don't understand why?
Kayte and i..
we weren't friends a long time ago.
although if she ever breaks up with mike she knows im there
sometimes it feels as though everyone around me has changed
when really, it's I who has changed. i've changed from a bitter person to a person who loves the world
i can't be a total bitch anymore. it's not possible.
and it's funny, sometimes i still feel pangs of jealousy for things that happened in the past, and things that are going on now.
but than i reflect on how amazing i have it right now
and how amazing my incredible boyfriend is
2 months and counting baby :)
anyway. Im gunna go.
i'll write you again stranger.
<3 ashleigh