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Why am I so afraid that I'll hate them? Isn't it a normal reaction? Everyone says that ending a relationship is a personal choice and that choice should be respected, but do people like that actually exist? I sort of wish I wasn't Akanishi Jin right now.
It's kind of unfair that it's so much easier to lose trust than gain it. It's something I did to myself, sleeping around. But wasn't that my best friend I was talking to? Someone who knew better? Maybe there isn't anything to know better. But I kind of hope there is.
I was scared again, when I realized I loved that best friend. I didn't want to think that I was leading him on all those years, taking advantage of our friendship to touch him that way. Was that what I was doing? Ah, I can't remember, but I'd like to hope not.
I feel like a coward hiding from him - them - like this. But if everyone says that I'm selfish, then I guess I have to live up to it. That's a sad way of thinking, isn't it?
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My mom sent me a Bible. D: She said it was an early Christmas present and I really, really, really hope she's kidding. I mean, I really can't go to church every Sunday in a situation like this!
Also, does anyone know where the library is? I really to move in or something... since the semester is ending soon, right? Being surrounded by books... and words... why is my life so hard? ;_;
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By the way, how does one go about relocating from one room to another? We have like... request forms or something?
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Oh, oh, oh. I have money. ♥ (Nakamaru, your money is my money, right?)
[OOC: Why is this so long I need a life. D:]
Why am I so afraid that I'll hate them? Isn't it a normal reaction? Everyone says that ending a relationship is a personal choice and that choice should be respected, but do people like that actually exist? I sort of wish I wasn't Akanishi Jin right now.
It's kind of unfair that it's so much easier to lose trust than gain it. It's something I did to myself, sleeping around. But wasn't that my best friend I was talking to? Someone who knew better? Maybe there isn't anything to know better. But I kind of hope there is.
I was scared again, when I realized I loved that best friend. I didn't want to think that I was leading him on all those years, taking advantage of our friendship to touch him that way. Was that what I was doing? Ah, I can't remember, but I'd like to hope not.
I feel like a coward hiding from him - them - like this. But if everyone says that I'm selfish, then I guess I have to live up to it. That's a sad way of thinking, isn't it?
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My mom sent me a Bible. D: She said it was an early Christmas present and I really, really, really hope she's kidding. I mean, I really can't go to church every Sunday in a situation like this!
Also, does anyone know where the library is? I really to move in or something... since the semester is ending soon, right? Being surrounded by books... and words... why is my life so hard? ;_;
[FILTERED TO: TEACHERS]
By the way, how does one go about relocating from one room to another? We have like... request forms or something?
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Oh, oh, oh. I have money. ♥ (Nakamaru, your money is my money, right?)
[OOC: Why is this so long I need a life. D:]