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so very very exciting! got my living end tickets today...i am really very happy now...need my fix of the living end once in a while
once in a while i get really home sick...guess this is one of them times...it is pretty lonely over here at the moment...i mean other than laura and john i dont really get to interact with too many people even though they are very nice to me...wants me to come back and work for them again before i leave...
miss my friends...just being able to look at them and have a chat to them...even talking on the phone seems weird somehow now.
slap me whoever if i go back to london and spend too much time at the dumil hostel...have to find my own place or at least a share place...that place is too much of a hole..dont want to be like most of the people there....no future no nothing...all they do is sit around and smoke weed all day...too lazy to even walk 5 minutes to the shops. suppose the only reason i would stay tehre would be chris and ike...it's sad to see them waste their time like that...suppose to be life changing experiences...not smoke all day and sleep all night.
wouldnt mind some alcohol right about now...it's been 3 weeks...long enough...well maybe i should get some duty free next weekend..yeah got my plane ticket today as well...pretty exciting but not as exciting as the living end. suppose it'll be fun...would be a lot better to have my friends with me though...really really looking forward to seeing megan and kate in dec...give them both lots and lots of hugs and kisses...but then it would be sad again when they have to go back home...suppose time is going by pretty quickly, i'll be back home in no time at all. just meet a lot of aussies over here and talk about everything australian, from radio stations to sheep fucking.
been looking at credit cards over here...have very cool designs..applied for a couple cos well...dont really want mum to see everything i'm buying while i'm over here(on the credit card anyways, can't pay for it over here)
think i should go to the chinese herbal place and get something for relieving stress..dont know why but i seem to get stressed a lot...even when i have no idea what it is i'm stressed about..just have a feeling in my stomach the whole time i cant get rid of...maybe i just need to smoke a bit more or something...too cold to go outside to smoke...and plus i have cut down a lot...without drinking a pack of 20s can last me more than a month at the moment...not sure how it's gonna be when i go back to london though...everyone smokes and no one ever has ciggies so a pack really only ever last a day...i am really good at rolling now though..have pros teaching me at the hostel...'shakey' was either trying to turn me into a dealer or he was just trying to convince himself it was still a good idea to him to be one or he was just trying to show off to me...not a chance...i've decided i'm not gonna smoke anymore...it's just making me really paranoid, cant fool myself into thinking it was doing anything else.
i guess i'm just really bored at the moment...sick of watching all the crap on tv and have no motivation to draw pictures. just have to keep on thinking about all the cool stuff like seeing the living end and the possibility of going to new york for the weekend...doubt ike and chris would be able to do it but never know....in a way i would really rather they get their own place first...good for them and good for me...i'll have somewhere a little bit nicer to stay at.
you know what jeff...you would be the only one who's ever gonna read this...so i'll just sit here and bore you some more.
i really hope everyone will still be the same when i get back, sure jasmine and jordan would both be a lot bigger and maybe they will be girlfriend and boyfriend by then(would be cute) hope everyone stay crazy and immature.
maybe i am wasting my life...have nothing to fall back on...oh well...figure something out when i get there...i'm sure i can fluke that too...at least i know more of what i dont want...maybe i'll become a farmer and have lots of cows
once in a while i get really home sick...guess this is one of them times...it is pretty lonely over here at the moment...i mean other than laura and john i dont really get to interact with too many people even though they are very nice to me...wants me to come back and work for them again before i leave...
miss my friends...just being able to look at them and have a chat to them...even talking on the phone seems weird somehow now.
slap me whoever if i go back to london and spend too much time at the dumil hostel...have to find my own place or at least a share place...that place is too much of a hole..dont want to be like most of the people there....no future no nothing...all they do is sit around and smoke weed all day...too lazy to even walk 5 minutes to the shops. suppose the only reason i would stay tehre would be chris and ike...it's sad to see them waste their time like that...suppose to be life changing experiences...not smoke all day and sleep all night.
wouldnt mind some alcohol right about now...it's been 3 weeks...long enough...well maybe i should get some duty free next weekend..yeah got my plane ticket today as well...pretty exciting but not as exciting as the living end. suppose it'll be fun...would be a lot better to have my friends with me though...really really looking forward to seeing megan and kate in dec...give them both lots and lots of hugs and kisses...but then it would be sad again when they have to go back home...suppose time is going by pretty quickly, i'll be back home in no time at all. just meet a lot of aussies over here and talk about everything australian, from radio stations to sheep fucking.
been looking at credit cards over here...have very cool designs..applied for a couple cos well...dont really want mum to see everything i'm buying while i'm over here(on the credit card anyways, can't pay for it over here)
think i should go to the chinese herbal place and get something for relieving stress..dont know why but i seem to get stressed a lot...even when i have no idea what it is i'm stressed about..just have a feeling in my stomach the whole time i cant get rid of...maybe i just need to smoke a bit more or something...too cold to go outside to smoke...and plus i have cut down a lot...without drinking a pack of 20s can last me more than a month at the moment...not sure how it's gonna be when i go back to london though...everyone smokes and no one ever has ciggies so a pack really only ever last a day...i am really good at rolling now though..have pros teaching me at the hostel...'shakey' was either trying to turn me into a dealer or he was just trying to convince himself it was still a good idea to him to be one or he was just trying to show off to me...not a chance...i've decided i'm not gonna smoke anymore...it's just making me really paranoid, cant fool myself into thinking it was doing anything else.
i guess i'm just really bored at the moment...sick of watching all the crap on tv and have no motivation to draw pictures. just have to keep on thinking about all the cool stuff like seeing the living end and the possibility of going to new york for the weekend...doubt ike and chris would be able to do it but never know....in a way i would really rather they get their own place first...good for them and good for me...i'll have somewhere a little bit nicer to stay at.
you know what jeff...you would be the only one who's ever gonna read this...so i'll just sit here and bore you some more.
i really hope everyone will still be the same when i get back, sure jasmine and jordan would both be a lot bigger and maybe they will be girlfriend and boyfriend by then(would be cute) hope everyone stay crazy and immature.
maybe i am wasting my life...have nothing to fall back on...oh well...figure something out when i get there...i'm sure i can fluke that too...at least i know more of what i dont want...maybe i'll become a farmer and have lots of cows