rejection
So I got rejected from UCLA and Cal. I guess I guess I"ll be off to UCSD, which is a good school. And I'm not writing this post to complain about the fact that I got rejected from my First Choice; I'm writing this cause I feel regretful about not trying hard in school.
In the end, my parents were right. Kumar was right about saying how if one wants to get into a good school, one should focus on academics instead of forming clubs and stuff. My friends were right about how UCs care most about your GPA and SAT scores. I thought that my ECs would be able to cancel out my bad GPA, and I thought my coming here three years ago would help, but I guess not. Perhaps one of the things I will regret at the end of this whole high school journey is that I didn't study hard.
I took the risk to do ECs and spend less time on classes. At the point when I first came to America, everyone told me to get all A's in all my classes and do like one extra cirricular. Over the time, I got into Journalism, placed in DECA, and totally got obsessed with ECs. I don't do ECs for college, but all those officer positions and awards of honors always attracted me, someone who always likes to aim high. I started to slack off in my classes, thinking that ECs are way more important than classes, and that a few B's and C's won't hurt my chance.
I guess I was wrong. About academics, not ECs. Participating in those ECs was an amazing experience that has helped me grow up so much over the past four years. I became more confident, speak English more fluently, and gain lots of social skills. However, at the same time, I should not have that bad attitude against academics. I should have stayed up later those nights to study just to get those A's, instead of thinking that it's fine to get a B and i'll make up for that B later. I should have paid more attention in class and not BSed those hw assignments, thinking I"ll learn the materials/read the book later. I should have not taken so many APs classes in my junior year, thinking that I'll be able to get good grades and get into my 1st choice school later.
That "later" never happens. I keep procrastinating, keep underestimating the AP classes, keep spending 90% of my time on ECs, keep slacking off. Rejections from Berkeley and LA have brought me down to the ground again. I'm not anyone special that can handle ECs and classes at the same time. I'm just a normal person; I should have known my ability better and chosen the more suitable way for me to go.
Well I guess these rejections will help me know more about myself and grow up. These rejections will help me do better at the university I will attend, in terms of getting better grades and not slacking off. Hopefully these rejections will open the way for big acceptances in the future. Hopefully I'll learn something from this after I "move on".
What makes me feel even worse is my parents. Before they forced me to study hard and get into good colleges. They compare me to my cousins and their friends' kids and say I"m dumber than those people. HOwever, when the decisions come out and I tell them I get rejected, they didn't say anything. Sometimes they even try to support me. And that silence/change in attitude makes me feel bad; I know I have disappointed them.
After Berkeley came out, this whole journey is about to come to an end. A very remarkable journey I would say. The last few Features layouts from now till June will still look amazing for sure, and I'll try to learn something at the leadership conference at Deca ICDC.
It might not be a happy ending. But I guess it's necessary for me at this point. Perhaps a necessary beginning for my college journey?
In the end, my parents were right. Kumar was right about saying how if one wants to get into a good school, one should focus on academics instead of forming clubs and stuff. My friends were right about how UCs care most about your GPA and SAT scores. I thought that my ECs would be able to cancel out my bad GPA, and I thought my coming here three years ago would help, but I guess not. Perhaps one of the things I will regret at the end of this whole high school journey is that I didn't study hard.
I took the risk to do ECs and spend less time on classes. At the point when I first came to America, everyone told me to get all A's in all my classes and do like one extra cirricular. Over the time, I got into Journalism, placed in DECA, and totally got obsessed with ECs. I don't do ECs for college, but all those officer positions and awards of honors always attracted me, someone who always likes to aim high. I started to slack off in my classes, thinking that ECs are way more important than classes, and that a few B's and C's won't hurt my chance.
I guess I was wrong. About academics, not ECs. Participating in those ECs was an amazing experience that has helped me grow up so much over the past four years. I became more confident, speak English more fluently, and gain lots of social skills. However, at the same time, I should not have that bad attitude against academics. I should have stayed up later those nights to study just to get those A's, instead of thinking that it's fine to get a B and i'll make up for that B later. I should have paid more attention in class and not BSed those hw assignments, thinking I"ll learn the materials/read the book later. I should have not taken so many APs classes in my junior year, thinking that I'll be able to get good grades and get into my 1st choice school later.
That "later" never happens. I keep procrastinating, keep underestimating the AP classes, keep spending 90% of my time on ECs, keep slacking off. Rejections from Berkeley and LA have brought me down to the ground again. I'm not anyone special that can handle ECs and classes at the same time. I'm just a normal person; I should have known my ability better and chosen the more suitable way for me to go.
Well I guess these rejections will help me know more about myself and grow up. These rejections will help me do better at the university I will attend, in terms of getting better grades and not slacking off. Hopefully these rejections will open the way for big acceptances in the future. Hopefully I'll learn something from this after I "move on".
What makes me feel even worse is my parents. Before they forced me to study hard and get into good colleges. They compare me to my cousins and their friends' kids and say I"m dumber than those people. HOwever, when the decisions come out and I tell them I get rejected, they didn't say anything. Sometimes they even try to support me. And that silence/change in attitude makes me feel bad; I know I have disappointed them.
After Berkeley came out, this whole journey is about to come to an end. A very remarkable journey I would say. The last few Features layouts from now till June will still look amazing for sure, and I'll try to learn something at the leadership conference at Deca ICDC.
It might not be a happy ending. But I guess it's necessary for me at this point. Perhaps a necessary beginning for my college journey?