"Good bye grey skies, hello blue.."
I'm a miracle baby! Or, I'd like to think so. Shit in the womb. icky. lol. HEY! I actually could have died! lol. "They stuck this long tube down into your lungs as soon as they saw shoulders.." Well, gee, maybe THAT could be why my gag reflex is so horrible. haha. Ok, ok...nothing new, really. Babysat the kids and the baby today. Omg, Jason just wants to get into everything, I swear. Didn't have to spend the night at Lisa's...going over there in the morning. Aww, Summerland made me happy cuz he's finally rid of the stupid twit that's like obsessed with him. Braiden, I believe is how his name is spelled. Something like that. He's hott. But anywho, appointment with Dr. KanKam Thursday at noon. Since I'm a new patient, have to take one of those personality tests and all. Fun, fun, fun. There's nothing wrong with me. I just want therapy. lol. Apparently there's this guy therapist that my sister swears is great, so if I don't like Mary Gentile, I can go to him. I forget his name. I'm not sure how I feel about it being a man. I think I could handle it. If my sister's seen him, or knows people who have, and he's really good, then why not give him a shot. Funny how I said "couldn't handle it" when I really meant "could handle it." I fixed it. I think I'm doing better with men. I haven't really been in any situations lately where I could get a better idea how I feel around them, so I don't know. But oh well. I'm okay. Really. I think I'm fine now. I haven't thought...okay, haven't dwelled on him or it for a while. Still have issues, of course, but those will always be there, I guess. It's not like I'm ready to say, "Hey, invite him over for dinner so we can all act like a family again." But you know. God. I hate him. With a passion. But moving on. Halle Berry's boobs looked bigger in the other dress. Tomorrow I have to spend the day at Lisa's...they have comcast cable internet, plus actual cable, so I think I'll survive. lol. I want to know what questions the doctor's going to ask me. I know the gist, but still. My mom said mine will probably be different from hers, so it wouldn't help for her to tell me what questions she got. Not like it really matters. "Just make sure you answer them honestly." Yeah...My brother's going to go see a doctor about depression medication. My sister, Lisa, is bipolar with borderline personality disorder, Lori has depression, my mom's bipolar, both my grandparents on my mom's side had depression, my grandmother severe, I believe. And then my brother has depression. It's wonderful, really. lol. Now I just have however long to worry about oncoming depression\bipolar possibilities. great. lol. Apparently I'm going to a buffet on Sunday because my uncle's going to be up from North Carolina. Knowing my dad, he'll make sure the conveersation goes straight to how untrustworthy I am or something. So, I have that to look forward to. haha. And Saturday, of course. If that does happen. That'll be good. Fun time. I want to...kiss someone. Johnny Depp preferably, but considering that's a pretty far fetched fantasy...lol...guess I could settle for some other hottness. tehehe. OK, so movie night at Frank's Saturday night. "Be there or be square." Hopefully my parents decide to love me then so I can actually go.
kiss youre dead: brad saying "i dont get it" really means "im so fucking emo so im going to go knit myself a sweater and cry in the corner. love sux."
*Brad comes back from being away*
kiss youre dead: he finished his sweater!!
kiss youre dead: yay!
I wanna goth myself out for a day and see how my parents react. "OMG..Well, at least now she's totally disownable..due to the untrustworthyness , she was simply hanging on by a thread, but this is it.." haha. My today mood surprises me. But I like it. Usually lately even if I'm happy, I'm still not...happy, you know? But this is good. lol. Sugar pie, honey bun, sugar pie, honey bun, im weaker than a man should be, i cant help myself, i'm a fool in love, you see...
I wish I could say that and mean it. lol. But I do love YOU! Just becasue you're taking the time to read this. That makes me happy. I do realizes that it's only like 2 people, 3 tops, but still. lol. ok..night night...
*.much.love.*
kiss youre dead: brad saying "i dont get it" really means "im so fucking emo so im going to go knit myself a sweater and cry in the corner. love sux."
*Brad comes back from being away*
kiss youre dead: he finished his sweater!!
kiss youre dead: yay!
I wanna goth myself out for a day and see how my parents react. "OMG..Well, at least now she's totally disownable..due to the untrustworthyness , she was simply hanging on by a thread, but this is it.." haha. My today mood surprises me. But I like it. Usually lately even if I'm happy, I'm still not...happy, you know? But this is good. lol. Sugar pie, honey bun, sugar pie, honey bun, im weaker than a man should be, i cant help myself, i'm a fool in love, you see...
I wish I could say that and mean it. lol. But I do love YOU! Just becasue you're taking the time to read this. That makes me happy. I do realizes that it's only like 2 people, 3 tops, but still. lol. ok..night night...
*.much.love.*