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i went back on all my entries and actually read all of the old ones. right now i feel like crying. if you go back and read them all, i use to be so depressed all the time. i use to fake my happiness. i'm so mad at myself right now. i wasted all that time being upset because of a guy. it wasn't fair; it's not fair. if you're someone that is getting mentally/physically abused by your "special someone" don't stay with them. i know you think he/she will change, but they won't, i promise. you WILL regret it. they will change, but for the worse. especially if you're being physically abused, dont stay there, months/years later it will hurt you. things you do in the future, will remind you of how you were abused. i watch movies and sometimes i have to change the channel cause it reminds me of how my past was. you will look back on all the bad memories and get so mad yourself for just staying there. you will feel as if you LIKED getting hurt. you would hate the feeling. i would NEVER go back and please quote me on that. the hardest part is letting go, but when one door closes on you, there's another one that opens. you wouldn't believe how good a change is. i know a lot of you will read this and not care, especially if you're not going through anything wrong in your relationship, but have it in mind, just feel warned. this was random, but i had to talk about it. thank you!
--i hate you & i hope you know that.
--i hate you & i hope you know that.