Trust the people you care about
Its 4 am
I cant sleep.
I realized that i dont really like myself.
I feel like I dont amount to anything much.
And I dont really care about anything anymore.
I dont live for anything. I just wake up and do whatever. It sucks.
Sorry for being negative. Its 4 am and you get lost in thoughts this early.
3 weeks ago life was.. almost perfect. Now i feel like a lie. and mediocre.
I love my friends and i miss my best friends.
Its weird, i hate sleeping, it gets in the way.. of well nothing now.
And food. im sick of eating. Ill eat. but im tired of it.
Im leaving for the beach on friday.. should be nice. But now that im not feeling sick anymore, itd be nice of i could stay home and catch up with people.. and life. One more week away makes it hard not to procrastinate on such things.
My left kidney hurts.. idk, dont ask. hah
3 and a half weeks,exactly, since ive talked to my one of my best friends and more to come.I cant do anything about it. Ive been pushed aside and I have to deal.-- I'm really sick of dealing.
Too many I's in this entry.
I dont even know why im writing in here, I never do anymore.
Its 4 am, and i cant sleep.
Breakfast with Tim and Stacia in about 5 hours. :]
Im really starting to realize who means the most to me in life.. those two people really do mean a lot. And how much friendship means to me.
Trust, that means a lot to me too. ive always felt that way.
im so sick of being at home. sort of.
Cassidy- We've been there for eachother since day one for me. literally. Even though we kinda lost touch for about 2 years I'm so glad to have had you in my life so far and for the rest of our lives. You're always there for pick me ups and for well.. just being plain ol silly. I'm VERY appreciative of our friendship and happy that we're growing even closer now. I'm here for you too. Anything that comes your way, just know I'll be there to help you through it.
I cant sleep.
I realized that i dont really like myself.
I feel like I dont amount to anything much.
And I dont really care about anything anymore.
I dont live for anything. I just wake up and do whatever. It sucks.
Sorry for being negative. Its 4 am and you get lost in thoughts this early.
3 weeks ago life was.. almost perfect. Now i feel like a lie. and mediocre.
I love my friends and i miss my best friends.
Its weird, i hate sleeping, it gets in the way.. of well nothing now.
And food. im sick of eating. Ill eat. but im tired of it.
Im leaving for the beach on friday.. should be nice. But now that im not feeling sick anymore, itd be nice of i could stay home and catch up with people.. and life. One more week away makes it hard not to procrastinate on such things.
My left kidney hurts.. idk, dont ask. hah
3 and a half weeks,exactly, since ive talked to my one of my best friends and more to come.I cant do anything about it. Ive been pushed aside and I have to deal.-- I'm really sick of dealing.
Too many I's in this entry.
I dont even know why im writing in here, I never do anymore.
Its 4 am, and i cant sleep.
Breakfast with Tim and Stacia in about 5 hours. :]
Im really starting to realize who means the most to me in life.. those two people really do mean a lot. And how much friendship means to me.
Trust, that means a lot to me too. ive always felt that way.
im so sick of being at home. sort of.
Cassidy- We've been there for eachother since day one for me. literally. Even though we kinda lost touch for about 2 years I'm so glad to have had you in my life so far and for the rest of our lives. You're always there for pick me ups and for well.. just being plain ol silly. I'm VERY appreciative of our friendship and happy that we're growing even closer now. I'm here for you too. Anything that comes your way, just know I'll be there to help you through it.