so i aint gonna lie
my life is fucking hectic! i just dont know what to do anymore- like im wit a straight girl kinda but yet i do naughty things every once in a while. Cuz i honestly dont know what she thinks about me. The only time she ever admits she loves me is when shes wasted. and then i dunno everything seems right. But now that i have a new job im always working and when im not working im tired as all could be - cuz 10 hours a day is a lot more than im used to by a long shot. So i just am so blah and exhausted - and she HATES hanging out with me when im like that. Cuz im no fun and im cranky and shit. but i dunno i guess sometimes im purposely mean cuz i wanna see if she really cares. Cuz i could so easily tell her to kiss my ass and shes just confusing me and playing the biggest game ever and leave her - but i cant cuz i honestly do love her and care for her so much more than so many other people. asides from my bestest friends (aka, jenny,sam and sheyenne) and i dunno - like everyone tells me to just forget her shes using me blah blah. but honestly if they only knew about half the shit. I just dont wanna lose someone i care so much about and cares about me.
Shit - and im good right, like i dont force her to do anything. Cept the other night i tried to get into her pants, and right then i crossed the border and it was hands off now time. Hahha it was fucked up. I mean imagine what was going on before? Hahaha..fucking straight girls i tell ya! Haha i mean hell i got a lesbian that wants the shit outta me and i have to like...not do anything. Haha er...Yeah. I dunno - once upon a party i was asked "why you gotta be so cute?" haha i shrugged i dont know. I guess im good looking..sometimes..
oh and i have that new job right - work with a bunch of like 28-50+ peoples except the temps are mostly all under that. and some 30 something yr old hits on me all the time. She's married too :S hahaha oops?
anywhoz that should be enuff of an entry. my head hurts and im hella tired - i get my wisdom teeth out tuesday morning :S mmm..shit that sucks. anywhoz nap time!
~*Kaylee
Shit - and im good right, like i dont force her to do anything. Cept the other night i tried to get into her pants, and right then i crossed the border and it was hands off now time. Hahha it was fucked up. I mean imagine what was going on before? Hahaha..fucking straight girls i tell ya! Haha i mean hell i got a lesbian that wants the shit outta me and i have to like...not do anything. Haha er...Yeah. I dunno - once upon a party i was asked "why you gotta be so cute?" haha i shrugged i dont know. I guess im good looking..sometimes..
oh and i have that new job right - work with a bunch of like 28-50+ peoples except the temps are mostly all under that. and some 30 something yr old hits on me all the time. She's married too :S hahaha oops?
anywhoz that should be enuff of an entry. my head hurts and im hella tired - i get my wisdom teeth out tuesday morning :S mmm..shit that sucks. anywhoz nap time!
~*Kaylee