holy shit
okay i need to vent - so tonight i'm with jenny and andrew (theyre upstairs as i type) and we were talking about how i really dont need to be tied down - specially my senior year! Haha no shit right? So like we were talking about how my girlfriend gets mad at everyone BUT ME when I hit on someone! Like with brandi - if I give brandi a hug, she gets mad at brandi - not me...
And i mean - i love jess i do - but not exactly as much as she loves me - shit shes in love wit me and i hate to fall for someone i might hurt in the end. Cuz to break her heart would kill me - but to stay with her might also screw up my life. I mean- i cant have funn and do naughty things - cuz theyre all like arent you with jess? and i have to say yeah i am - but yet i hit on and try to get some from everyone.
and to tell my rentz i'm bisexual or whatever i am nowadays could fuck up that relationship too - but id do it - just to go to prom with a girl - but i dont really have to say oh hey im dating jess. i dunno..its all so confusing to me
and ive been drinking - she was drunk when she called me - haha i told her i had to go cuz she kept talking about it and its my night with andrew and jenny. So whatever. I dunno. I dont want to hurt her. But i cant help it. ya know. and i like the fact she loves me so much and cares so much - but i have andrew and jenny for that. And Mrs Bjorum is almost PUSHING me into telling my rentz. WTF would i wanna do that?! Its all her fault and if they hate me for it its still her fault. i dont know what to do...
:(
But yeah better go now i'm on andrew's computer without him knowin!! =S
~*Kaylee
And i mean - i love jess i do - but not exactly as much as she loves me - shit shes in love wit me and i hate to fall for someone i might hurt in the end. Cuz to break her heart would kill me - but to stay with her might also screw up my life. I mean- i cant have funn and do naughty things - cuz theyre all like arent you with jess? and i have to say yeah i am - but yet i hit on and try to get some from everyone.
and to tell my rentz i'm bisexual or whatever i am nowadays could fuck up that relationship too - but id do it - just to go to prom with a girl - but i dont really have to say oh hey im dating jess. i dunno..its all so confusing to me
and ive been drinking - she was drunk when she called me - haha i told her i had to go cuz she kept talking about it and its my night with andrew and jenny. So whatever. I dunno. I dont want to hurt her. But i cant help it. ya know. and i like the fact she loves me so much and cares so much - but i have andrew and jenny for that. And Mrs Bjorum is almost PUSHING me into telling my rentz. WTF would i wanna do that?! Its all her fault and if they hate me for it its still her fault. i dont know what to do...
:(
But yeah better go now i'm on andrew's computer without him knowin!! =S
~*Kaylee