wow...i can't handle this for some reason
Okay well we've been at it for a little more than 2 weeks now. Its been good - i love her, but i'm not IN love with her. I realized this last night while talking to brandi. cuz now i'm worried. cuz i still wanna get into brandi's pants haha and i had a dream with brandi and jess in it and i ended up kissing brandi with jess sitting RIGHT NEXT TO HER! and like it was only a dream, and i was all worried and shit haha cuz it might be a look at whats to come. Cuz yesterday i almost DID kiss brandi downstairs at jess's house! it was bad..like we were slowing leaning in closer to each other. but thank god wesley (brandi's younger brother) came downstairs and that stopped that. haha but i guess brandi and john have a thing going on too...brandi might be the cause of two relationships to go down the drain.. I hope not tho. I could never do that to her. I couldn't cheat on her. I love her, and to hurt her would be to make me hate myself. I can't do that.
Wow..I just dont know...I am so not sure if I like the whole relationship thing or not.i mean i like it but i dont know whether i am that able to do it or not. Becuz i'm a fucking senior dating a sophomore! its just weird...but i mean - its nice. Cuz she loves my friends, they love her, she bakes for us..haha its awesome. I dunno. And i do believe this is my longest relationship ever. It went fast tho. And Sara would be the only girl besides her i've kissed but thats just how goodbye for her and i are. A hug and a kiss.
So yeah
Oh - and the computer i'm on right now is a labtop from the Votech center. cuz i'm suppose to do the state skills thing. And my state bowling just happens to fall on the same weekend, so i dont think i will be able to -and the only reason i have the tablet is so that i can practice CCNA shit. And if i can do it then oh well but the only sucky part is that i would have to give this back! *tear* i've only had it for a week :( and i got so used to it. Just going onto the net whenever - as long as wireless was available haha just steal everything from random people!haha but i'll have to delete so much shit! becuz i downloaded a lot of stuff onto here..hehe like MSN messenger, shane pics..
so yeah - and i still walk. I got to drive the rents' car last night. then i went up to sara's ....then i talked to jess ..
She might spend the night on thursday. I hope so - cuz then yeah..haha
I'm so poor right now!! like i need a car, i need this i need that..haha but i cant get anything. i need to save up for next year. Damn. I acutally seriously though dont mind walking tho. Its good exercise. I mean, i am staying in shape!? haha
And i'm seriously enjoying my new look. its so funn - i even get straight chicks walking up to me saying how hott i look or something. and like brandi wouldn't tell me what i looked like last night cuz i guess it was too much for her haha cuz i had on my kick ass ripped up girl jeans, a mens white underdress shirt and my pinstripped mens black shirt. haha and so i called brandi last night to ask her what she thought and she said i looked fucking hott - and the only reason she wouldnt tell me is cuz jess is alwayz near us when we're by each other. haha cuz she doesnt trust brandi..its me she shouldnt trust. But thus far i've been a very good girl =D I'm still the flirt ever tho! haha
I hate it - not having that much money. Thank god i dont have a vehicle really. cuz that leaves me to just walk and if i have to give people money for gas if they ask.
ANYWHOZ!....
I need to shower!
~*Kaylee
Wow..I just dont know...I am so not sure if I like the whole relationship thing or not.i mean i like it but i dont know whether i am that able to do it or not. Becuz i'm a fucking senior dating a sophomore! its just weird...but i mean - its nice. Cuz she loves my friends, they love her, she bakes for us..haha its awesome. I dunno. And i do believe this is my longest relationship ever. It went fast tho. And Sara would be the only girl besides her i've kissed but thats just how goodbye for her and i are. A hug and a kiss.
So yeah
Oh - and the computer i'm on right now is a labtop from the Votech center. cuz i'm suppose to do the state skills thing. And my state bowling just happens to fall on the same weekend, so i dont think i will be able to -and the only reason i have the tablet is so that i can practice CCNA shit. And if i can do it then oh well but the only sucky part is that i would have to give this back! *tear* i've only had it for a week :( and i got so used to it. Just going onto the net whenever - as long as wireless was available haha just steal everything from random people!haha but i'll have to delete so much shit! becuz i downloaded a lot of stuff onto here..hehe like MSN messenger, shane pics..
so yeah - and i still walk. I got to drive the rents' car last night. then i went up to sara's ....then i talked to jess ..
She might spend the night on thursday. I hope so - cuz then yeah..haha
I'm so poor right now!! like i need a car, i need this i need that..haha but i cant get anything. i need to save up for next year. Damn. I acutally seriously though dont mind walking tho. Its good exercise. I mean, i am staying in shape!? haha
And i'm seriously enjoying my new look. its so funn - i even get straight chicks walking up to me saying how hott i look or something. and like brandi wouldn't tell me what i looked like last night cuz i guess it was too much for her haha cuz i had on my kick ass ripped up girl jeans, a mens white underdress shirt and my pinstripped mens black shirt. haha and so i called brandi last night to ask her what she thought and she said i looked fucking hott - and the only reason she wouldnt tell me is cuz jess is alwayz near us when we're by each other. haha cuz she doesnt trust brandi..its me she shouldnt trust. But thus far i've been a very good girl =D I'm still the flirt ever tho! haha
I hate it - not having that much money. Thank god i dont have a vehicle really. cuz that leaves me to just walk and if i have to give people money for gas if they ask.
ANYWHOZ!....
I need to shower!
~*Kaylee