Obviously I can't say whether you're in the early stages of anorexia or whether you have strong problems/issues related to food, exercise & body image, but it does look like you have some tendencies towards it.
Regardless of that, I just wanted to say that I relate to a lot of what you're saying.
What you say at first, about how you're posting it here because if you talked to someone you actually know they'd wonder why on earth you were talking about it, I completely understand. It's so weird that a lot of us do not voice our worries and fears to the people we know because we don't expect them to understand us, but instead talk to complete strangers, who, 99% of the time, do understand. Meaning that really, the people we do know probably would understand, yet even with this knowledge, it's still unlikely that we would tell them. In fact, they're probably doing the exact same thing. I do this all the time. It's just funny how we don't expect acceptance & understanding from those close to us, but do from complete strangers. I hope that makes sense, aha. Obviously it's because this way, we are anonymous, and less worried of what they will think. I guess that's the obvious explanation, but it's still interesting.
Anyhow, getting on to what you were actually talking about (I have a tendency to get sidetracked)...I undestand what you mean about some day just suddenly really hating everything about your body, I'm the same. It's not wrong to say you'd rather be skinny, but not gaunt. As long as you're healthy, being skinny's fine. And I don't believe in all that BMI shit. The BMI things always say I'm underweight, but to me and anyone who'd look at me, it's obvious that I'm perfectly healthy in that respect. I think if you feel you want to lose some weight, do so, but don't get carried away. I understand if you have tendencies towards anorexia (again, not saying you have it or anything, but you know what I mean?) it could be hard not to, but if you eat healthily, cut down on junk food, and exercise every day, it should be fine. I'd advise against exercising twice a day though, because you really don't need to. It's not healthy to exercise more than once a day.
About loving feeling sore from exercising, I don't think that's weird. At least, if it is, I'm weird with you. I feel exactly the same. It's like, if you don't feel sore, you don't feel as if the exercise has had any effect. If you do, you feel like you're making progress. I think that's fine - most people do feel sore from exercising, and it does show that it's having an effect, it's not a bad thing.
I think the best thing to do is not obsess about it. Try to be healthy and exercise, but don't obsess endlessly over every little thing you eat and the amount of exercise you do. Focus on other things too.
Sorry for going on like this, I just felt I had to reply (:
Oh and, I hate my thighs too. By some 'miracle' (not a good one, though) they seem to have grown about three times bigger than the rest of my body. I have no idea how this happened.
Thank you so much for your comments on this. I truly do understand what you mean about being able to talk to complete strangers and not those close to you. In all honesty, that's exactly how I feel. Last year, when doing that BMI stuff I was classified as underweight too, but clearly I wasn't. So I feel that's all crap too. However, some weeks can go by and I feel really skinny, you know? And I noticed it usually cycles right with my period (weird, but true). I always find myself feeling my skinniest when it's either a week or two before my period. Does this happen to you to? Anatomically we do actually burn more calories in the week before our period because our bodies are gearing up for the week of hell. Haha. Random factoid anyways. BUT, yes if there was one part on my body I'd change it would be my thighs. Now, with genetics against me I'm not quite sure how I would go about doing this though hahah. It seems as if doing lunges and squats only makes them BIGGER. But, whatever I suppose. And then I notice when I don't exercise but eat relatively little I feel skinnier too. Bah, it's just a weird cycle I suppose. I used to be really comfortable in my skin last year ... actually, scratch that. I'll tell you when I started the whole losing weight kick. A guy friend of mine who I had a huge crush on and we were definetely like one of those "dating without titles" kind of couples had like hit my thigh or something like that when we were sitting down and he was like, "Holy cow, you're thighs are like really strong". Of course I took offense to that, but didn't show it obviously. I just shrugged it off. "Yeah, I'm a jumper (for track & field, I did triple jump). What do you expect?" After that day I kind of vowed to start exercising more and eating less, and approximately one year later I was down to the skinniest I'd ever been. It took me a while to realize just how much that one comment affected me, and how much all the comments I got once I was so skinny affected me even more. To be quite honest, I relished the comments when people said, "Oh my God, you turn side ways and you like disappear!" or "You're so tiny!" or "You really need to gain weight" (the last one was from my mother, grandmother, etc. I looked my tiniest in my prom dress last year, and I think I really had the beginning stages of anorexia then only because I was just never satisfied with my body. I almost didn't get my ah-mazing prom dress because I had those pesky fat pooches under my arms and they showed up. Everyone I went dress shopping with looked at me crazy. If I had to say what I believe was where I looked my best it would have to be at our senior banquet a few weeks later. I wasn't so thin, but I was still right where I wanted to be. I'd kill to be there again (not literally - I'm not crazy, I promise!). But I really wouldn't mine being so small. I feel though that I have lost some weight since being home from college. The waistband on my jeans has become larger over the summer, and my thighs seem to be getting at least a *little* smaller. So my super hard work has been paying off a little bit. It's weird that I'm having trouble now managing my eating habits because I used to live on salads and stuff. I still love salads, don't get me wrong, but I have a huge tendency to creep towards all the unhealthy eating habbits. Its frustrating because I know I used to be able to do it, so what's preventing me now? Luckily I don't have those wacked cravings for cookies anymore, since they make me feel sick XD hahaha. But thank you so much for being understanding, even though you are a complete stranger lol. :)
That's alright (: I havn't noticed any changes in my weight going along with my period, but it could be. I just havn't noticed it.
Yeah, but then, I don't think it matters that much about the size - more about keeping them toned y'know? Maybe search the internet for exercises that slim thighs down or something...I don't know, it's hard to know what to do exercise-wise.
Oh yeah, I hate being in one of those 'dating-without-titles' couples, it's always so confusing. Anyway, yeah it is funny how one little comment can have such a big effect, change the way you think for ever. He probably had no idea how it would effect you. I often find that guys don't realise how sensitive we can be when it comes to body image and often say things without realising that it's having a negative effect on us. I mean, guys do this to me too, and I just think 'WHY did you just say that?! Does it not cross your mind that that was probably a really tactless thing to say?!'. Arghh, but of course I never say anything cause I don't want to seem all paranoid and like I care. As to what he said about you, I wouldnt view that as a bad thing. He said your thighs were strong, and what's wrong with that? I know it's hard to think this way but you've got to try and see that he probably didn't mean it in a bad way at all.
Oh, I have an awful tendency towards junk food. I'm a really fussy eater so that doesn't eat. I don't eat meat, I eat some fish, and then I don't really like many vegetables or well, anything, really. So it's just so tempting to go for the bad food, and I get such bad cravings. Also, when I was younger I was always really skinny and toned, and I ate what I want. I guess I got into that mindset and didn't quite realise that as I got older I wasn't going to be able to just eat whatever I like and stay slim and toned. I still can't quite get out of it, so it's really awkward. You're lucky that you at least like salad and don't get as bad cravings anymore!
And yeah, I feel the same about being frustrated cause you used to be able to eat healthily etc. and now can't. I'll have periods where I'm really good - I exercise and eat healthily and I have the motivation to do it. And then it just suddenly goes for no apparent reason and I can't get back into it again, ahh.
But yeah, gotta just try and not obsess but still be healthy (:
It may just be me, and I think it's just really how I feel versus the truth of it all. Who knows. And toned is good, I don't mind that too much. I know what you're saying though, yep. And I hate that kind of stuff too. It was really weird how we were like dating, but not. Ugh. Whatever. I'm over it now obviously. And guys can be really thick when it comes to stuff like that, unfortunately. We tend to be the more sensitive and thoughtful sex, while they just...well they're pretty blunt. But I'm sure he didn't mean it in a bad way. He was just like whoa didn't expect that! It does suck that hitting even eighteen and you've got to start managing everything really well. I suppose though, that luckily I still have a rather quick metabolism because I ate like complete shit this year at my university and I gained a good couple pounds, but the way I was eating should have made me gain a bunch more. So that was luck for sure. And I always go back and forth back and forth all the time so it's really annoying. Lately I've just been craving a crapload of peanut butter. No idea why though ahahaha. I love peanut butter too much. Ahhh well. My I got my wisdom tooth out today so that was fairly easy - almost no pain! :) hahah. Going under laughing gas is the weirdest feeling ever, so I don't know if you've ever done it but mannn it was weird. And I'm fairly healthy for the most part. I've been doing well for the past few days at least. woot!
Regardless of that, I just wanted to say that I relate to a lot of what you're saying.
What you say at first, about how you're posting it here because if you talked to someone you actually know they'd wonder why on earth you were talking about it, I completely understand. It's so weird that a lot of us do not voice our worries and fears to the people we know because we don't expect them to understand us, but instead talk to complete strangers, who, 99% of the time, do understand. Meaning that really, the people we do know probably would understand, yet even with this knowledge, it's still unlikely that we would tell them. In fact, they're probably doing the exact same thing. I do this all the time. It's just funny how we don't expect acceptance & understanding from those close to us, but do from complete strangers. I hope that makes sense, aha. Obviously it's because this way, we are anonymous, and less worried of what they will think. I guess that's the obvious explanation, but it's still interesting.
Anyhow, getting on to what you were actually talking about (I have a tendency to get sidetracked)...I undestand what you mean about some day just suddenly really hating everything about your body, I'm the same. It's not wrong to say you'd rather be skinny, but not gaunt. As long as you're healthy, being skinny's fine. And I don't believe in all that BMI shit. The BMI things always say I'm underweight, but to me and anyone who'd look at me, it's obvious that I'm perfectly healthy in that respect. I think if you feel you want to lose some weight, do so, but don't get carried away. I understand if you have tendencies towards anorexia (again, not saying you have it or anything, but you know what I mean?) it could be hard not to, but if you eat healthily, cut down on junk food, and exercise every day, it should be fine. I'd advise against exercising twice a day though, because you really don't need to. It's not healthy to exercise more than once a day.
About loving feeling sore from exercising, I don't think that's weird. At least, if it is, I'm weird with you. I feel exactly the same. It's like, if you don't feel sore, you don't feel as if the exercise has had any effect. If you do, you feel like you're making progress. I think that's fine - most people do feel sore from exercising, and it does show that it's having an effect, it's not a bad thing.
I think the best thing to do is not obsess about it. Try to be healthy and exercise, but don't obsess endlessly over every little thing you eat and the amount of exercise you do. Focus on other things too.
Sorry for going on like this, I just felt I had to reply (:
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Yeah, but then, I don't think it matters that much about the size - more about keeping them toned y'know? Maybe search the internet for exercises that slim thighs down or something...I don't know, it's hard to know what to do exercise-wise.
Oh yeah, I hate being in one of those 'dating-without-titles' couples, it's always so confusing. Anyway, yeah it is funny how one little comment can have such a big effect, change the way you think for ever. He probably had no idea how it would effect you. I often find that guys don't realise how sensitive we can be when it comes to body image and often say things without realising that it's having a negative effect on us. I mean, guys do this to me too, and I just think 'WHY did you just say that?! Does it not cross your mind that that was probably a really tactless thing to say?!'. Arghh, but of course I never say anything cause I don't want to seem all paranoid and like I care. As to what he said about you, I wouldnt view that as a bad thing. He said your thighs were strong, and what's wrong with that? I know it's hard to think this way but you've got to try and see that he probably didn't mean it in a bad way at all.
Oh, I have an awful tendency towards junk food. I'm a really fussy eater so that doesn't eat. I don't eat meat, I eat some fish, and then I don't really like many vegetables or well, anything, really. So it's just so tempting to go for the bad food, and I get such bad cravings. Also, when I was younger I was always really skinny and toned, and I ate what I want. I guess I got into that mindset and didn't quite realise that as I got older I wasn't going to be able to just eat whatever I like and stay slim and toned. I still can't quite get out of it, so it's really awkward. You're lucky that you at least like salad and don't get as bad cravings anymore!
And yeah, I feel the same about being frustrated cause you used to be able to eat healthily etc. and now can't. I'll have periods where I'm really good - I exercise and eat healthily and I have the motivation to do it. And then it just suddenly goes for no apparent reason and I can't get back into it again, ahh.
But yeah, gotta just try and not obsess but still be healthy (:
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