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I'm so ready to go home. I wish I didn't have to say her for another 6 months... I miss babe too much... I feel like I have no reason to be up here anymore... I have no one to hang out with... I'm lonely... I'm going back to Miami for the Cure show on friday, thank goodness... I can't wait to be in his arms again... that's really the only thing I can think about... friday... it makes my heart stop... I need food... I'm almost starving againa nd I'm out of coke... shit... I started smoking again... I'm so weak... He gave up his bestfriend yesterday... I hate that... I don't want him to hurt... but at the same time of course I'm speechless at the fact that he did that for me... why me... I guess it doesn't matter... I'm lucky.... I hope I get my period soon, but not this weekend b/c that will just ruin everything... so yea, I guess it will be this weekend then, my body hates me... fuck that... Lissette is being selfish... she has yet to call Doug and thank him, Golan should go instead... and I hate the way she takes advantage of Bel... Feilx is being shady, and suddenly Hayden is 310's new bestfriend... I don't get it... thank's to babe for making it better... I wonder what this feeling is... I'm lost in his world and I never want to leave it.... it's weird, I've never been so happy and sad at the same time... I talked to Sol yesterday too... I miss her... we chated about Michel and Mykill... I would love for Mykill to meet Sol.... I can't wait to get to Miami I really can't... I downloaded this new musik dl-er... badfuckingass... I'm addicted... I have all these new tunes to jam to... its time too, I was kinda getting sick of the music I had.... the new Cure is amazing... brings back memories of babe, that's always a good thing... <3