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These old walls have seen the worst of me, they're bleeding confession.. but they'll never speak.
This past week has been kind of a blur. Because for some reason a person can be fine one day and then things will competely change the next day. In saying that, my mother is in the hospital. She has been since Thursday night. And I've been an emotional mess. I'm emotionally exhausted and I really shouldn't even be awake right now. Sleep is what I need, but I'll deprive my body of it for no apparent reason.
So I guess when my mother had the 'flu' it wasn't the flu. She had this really bad thing. I deno what to call it. But basically, she was dying. She could have died, or gone into a coma if we waited any longer. But how were we to know? It's 50x worse because she is, in-fact, a diabetic. So that sucks.
Anyways; apparently her pancreas (which regulates your body's sugars.. the thing that only half works for diabetics) was eating itself and blahblahblah. So she stayed the night in the hospital Thursday night, then it was said that she'd be there for the 'rest of the weekend' in the Intensive Care ward, and then it jumped to three weeks, but then I talked to her later that day and it went down to 'four more days'. But right now I've got no clue whats going on. Because they keep finding stuff and contradicting themselves and a bunch of other gey stuff. It's just makin' me soooo mad, and I just want to know whats going to go on.
I've taken the role of my mother. My father works nights, so it's really just me and Kar. I deno if I'll have the strength to make it through the week.
However, my friends Michael and Kim have been tremendously awesome in supporting me. And yeah, I'm so glad I have them.
Longest entry ever. Forgive me.
♥
This past week has been kind of a blur. Because for some reason a person can be fine one day and then things will competely change the next day. In saying that, my mother is in the hospital. She has been since Thursday night. And I've been an emotional mess. I'm emotionally exhausted and I really shouldn't even be awake right now. Sleep is what I need, but I'll deprive my body of it for no apparent reason.
So I guess when my mother had the 'flu' it wasn't the flu. She had this really bad thing. I deno what to call it. But basically, she was dying. She could have died, or gone into a coma if we waited any longer. But how were we to know? It's 50x worse because she is, in-fact, a diabetic. So that sucks.
Anyways; apparently her pancreas (which regulates your body's sugars.. the thing that only half works for diabetics) was eating itself and blahblahblah. So she stayed the night in the hospital Thursday night, then it was said that she'd be there for the 'rest of the weekend' in the Intensive Care ward, and then it jumped to three weeks, but then I talked to her later that day and it went down to 'four more days'. But right now I've got no clue whats going on. Because they keep finding stuff and contradicting themselves and a bunch of other gey stuff. It's just makin' me soooo mad, and I just want to know whats going to go on.
I've taken the role of my mother. My father works nights, so it's really just me and Kar. I deno if I'll have the strength to make it through the week.
However, my friends Michael and Kim have been tremendously awesome in supporting me. And yeah, I'm so glad I have them.
Longest entry ever. Forgive me.
♥