Physical Abuse

[silly_eclaire]

One time I was living with a boyfriend. He woke up in the morning, couldn't find his stash of money and coccaine (which I didn't know about until he couldn't find it). He accused me of stealing it, did a round house punch on me, which didn't hurt but it was the idea that he did it. I drove him to work, by the time I got back home my mom had

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[parlor_games]

Oh, honey. I am sorry you are going through this. And I have nothing I can offer, other than sympathy. It would be impossible to truly understand how hurt and betrayed you must be feeling...though I sense you are mostly feeling hurt and betrayed by yourself, for trusting and loving someone who was the source of so much unhappiness.

But that does not mean that there is anything wrong with YOU. Perhaps you got the best your father was able to offer this world. You might have just gotten ALL of it, you know? You might have been his one redemption, in the face of all of the hurt and anguish he caused. You can remember the things about him that are worth remembering, and honor those memories. And also be proud of yourself, that you are a loving and generous person, with the best laugh and the biggest heart of anyone you know, in spite of the dubious legacy he left in other ways. So, whatever was good about your dad can be a positive force in your life, and help you to continue to bring your family and friends happiness.

He doesn't get the credit, though. That joy is ALL YOU.