Jul 03, 2003 22:15
i need to get myself a relationship of some sort.i want that dizzy & intoxicating feeling inside me they talk about so much.imagine i've never been in love, nor had a proper crush. yesterday i was listing down things i've done and haven't done. not a thing has been done because i wanted to. i've wanted many things, but they have always failed some way.
all my life has been full of disappointments and it sickens me.
almost 17 years and not a one single moment of true cheer happiness. there might be few though from the times poet was still alive. or so i keep telling myself because i don't remember one single thing. or maybe some of those little moments should feel good now. now that everything's different.
i want back home. i hate it here.
people always die at the wrong time.
i think my neighbor is a male prostitute or has many many male friends he uh,spends time with wearing almost nothing, drinking beer and cuddling with.